Aaaah life is goood..
^_^ I've had a nice and relaxing week this week... well its been alright it started off rocky as you all know, I havn't thought about my fears to much despite when I bring it up like this.. time to time I take a moment to think it over but it hasn't bugged me, I still will be looking into getting some form of help for it however, I never want to feel that way again.
So yes, apon realising this week I lost terra... and its probably for good this time, your all aware of our history, however she said somthing to me this week that at first shocked me but then made me realise.. Why Am I clinging onto this person? and why am I even trying to keep her as a close freind? She said to me people grow apart (aparently people grow apart after only spending a year with one another..ooo..k) so She's going to college getting into the real world..well o.k; Fine, is all i have to say to that..
We got ina huge argument and I just lost my rag and basicly ended it, I felt numb for a while but then she came back and appologised to me....that made me realise somthing else, appologise for what? sure she had alot to appologise for but I left it at that. We became civil and now that its left at that I find its no longer her growing apart from me, I find myself becomming very tierd, of her... very tierd of all these mood swings and fast direction changes in life, I decided just to let her go, I have freinds much better and that deserve my attention more. And thats all I have to say, It was fun with ter whilst it lasted but I've spoken to enough of her ex freinds to realise I was nothing spechial ither.
I just want to thank neo and brandin for being there for me...they are two very spechial people in my life right now ^_^ and this week couldn't have gone so nicley without them.. Sure Iv'e always viewed them as freinds but this last few weeks has really taught me who my real freinds are... I should strive to keep freinds like them and not freinds like terra who just blow me away frequently.. ^_^ I love you guys *hugs*
So yes, apon realising this week I lost terra... and its probably for good this time, your all aware of our history, however she said somthing to me this week that at first shocked me but then made me realise.. Why Am I clinging onto this person? and why am I even trying to keep her as a close freind? She said to me people grow apart (aparently people grow apart after only spending a year with one another..ooo..k) so She's going to college getting into the real world..well o.k; Fine, is all i have to say to that..
We got ina huge argument and I just lost my rag and basicly ended it, I felt numb for a while but then she came back and appologised to me....that made me realise somthing else, appologise for what? sure she had alot to appologise for but I left it at that. We became civil and now that its left at that I find its no longer her growing apart from me, I find myself becomming very tierd, of her... very tierd of all these mood swings and fast direction changes in life, I decided just to let her go, I have freinds much better and that deserve my attention more. And thats all I have to say, It was fun with ter whilst it lasted but I've spoken to enough of her ex freinds to realise I was nothing spechial ither.
I just want to thank neo and brandin for being there for me...they are two very spechial people in my life right now ^_^ and this week couldn't have gone so nicley without them.. Sure Iv'e always viewed them as freinds but this last few weeks has really taught me who my real freinds are... I should strive to keep freinds like them and not freinds like terra who just blow me away frequently.. ^_^ I love you guys *hugs*