By no demand nor request, but by my need
This is going to sound completely and utterly ridiculous because I know that I have done all of this to myself...
I'm the reason we're not together
I'm the reason you're hurt
And I'm the reason I can't fix it.
I think I'm the one who's screwed everything up now. I don't know what to do. Kid, right now I'm so much happier than I have been in the past year. So much happier. I want it all the time. I want to not worry about who's looking at me and telling me that I need to stop. I don't want to.
I know what I said about Eric. I didn't lie to you, I did and do have feelings for him but this is stupid because it isn't going to work with him - it's never going to. And now I've said all of these things that I can't just turn around and end it without hurting him...or maybe he won't be hurt - it's not like all of these feelings can be that great. Hell I don't know. I don't know why I wrote this. I just don't know. I'm sorry.
I'm the reason we're not together
I'm the reason you're hurt
And I'm the reason I can't fix it.
I think I'm the one who's screwed everything up now. I don't know what to do. Kid, right now I'm so much happier than I have been in the past year. So much happier. I want it all the time. I want to not worry about who's looking at me and telling me that I need to stop. I don't want to.
I know what I said about Eric. I didn't lie to you, I did and do have feelings for him but this is stupid because it isn't going to work with him - it's never going to. And now I've said all of these things that I can't just turn around and end it without hurting him...or maybe he won't be hurt - it's not like all of these feelings can be that great. Hell I don't know. I don't know why I wrote this. I just don't know. I'm sorry.