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There are about 50 million reasons why today and yesterday sucked:
Yesterday....
Got a letter from Eric - I can't tell for sure, but I'm pretty sure he hates me. Awesome.
Church is always a reason to be unhappy anymore - too many loud drama queens to get anything out of it. Not to mention not having TJ there to sacrifice my sanity. He was sick.
Then after/during church - I got sick. And it just kept getting worse.
Today....
There was no going to school. I was so sick I couldn't move.
I got nothing accomplished today and it drives me nuts.
Then I went outside to let my pomeranian Bama in, my dog of 9 years that I adore, and she was laying dead by the doghouse. That was like my mom's child. So the whole night was tears and suckiness.
Then, as if that wasn't enough, my stupid mouth and my ridiculous feelings landed me in an argument with TJ. I don't know why I don't just shut up. Or kill myself. Nothing I say gets me anywhere but in trouble or I hurt someone's feelings or they hate me.
After leaving TJ's I thought - Damn...I need to laugh. So I naturally went to the guys house. Stupid idea. Their little dog Bianca just made me miss Bama. And all I got to hear from, well I'll leave her name out but whoever knows her will get it, all I got to hear from her was how worthless my best friend is and all he does is hurt me. So then Ig et that in my head and feel so empowered to say something.
So I stupidly do say something and then everything gets all messed up. I hate myself. I just gave all of my problems to God last Sunday and now I've got 523784502834705872450724052 more on my shoulders.
I hate me.
Yesterday....
Got a letter from Eric - I can't tell for sure, but I'm pretty sure he hates me. Awesome.
Church is always a reason to be unhappy anymore - too many loud drama queens to get anything out of it. Not to mention not having TJ there to sacrifice my sanity. He was sick.
Then after/during church - I got sick. And it just kept getting worse.
Today....
There was no going to school. I was so sick I couldn't move.
I got nothing accomplished today and it drives me nuts.
Then I went outside to let my pomeranian Bama in, my dog of 9 years that I adore, and she was laying dead by the doghouse. That was like my mom's child. So the whole night was tears and suckiness.
Then, as if that wasn't enough, my stupid mouth and my ridiculous feelings landed me in an argument with TJ. I don't know why I don't just shut up. Or kill myself. Nothing I say gets me anywhere but in trouble or I hurt someone's feelings or they hate me.
After leaving TJ's I thought - Damn...I need to laugh. So I naturally went to the guys house. Stupid idea. Their little dog Bianca just made me miss Bama. And all I got to hear from, well I'll leave her name out but whoever knows her will get it, all I got to hear from her was how worthless my best friend is and all he does is hurt me. So then Ig et that in my head and feel so empowered to say something.
So I stupidly do say something and then everything gets all messed up. I hate myself. I just gave all of my problems to God last Sunday and now I've got 523784502834705872450724052 more on my shoulders.
I hate me.