regression
Prompt: Regression - written for fic_15
Fandom: Sailor Moon
Characters: Minako, Kunzite
Genre: Angst
Rating: R
Minako woke slowly, feeling the heaviness of his arm across her stomach and the reality of his breath on her neck. So different from the muted shadows, scant touches, and whispers of the night.
She wished she could shut out the daylight and return to her dream. Return to him last night, when everything had been perfect.
She stroked his arm tentatively.
Last night, she had come to him, wanting and needing. Centuries of separation, or betrayal, or fighting, and all of a sudden. Here he was.
All she could think about was having him. Being with him. Having him inside her, on top of her, having him surround her in every way possible.
Because it had been too damn long.
So, she had all but thrown herself at him. He had laughed, and said only she could do that and still have all her dignity and pride. But he had not resisted.
He had fallen as well, into her hair, her body, her scent. Everything he could get his hands and his lips on. Everything his eyes could see that they had not had the pleasure of for endless years.
They could not hold back how much they wanted each other, how fluid their bodies moved against each other, how accepting they were of anything they could receive.
They had gone late into the night. Waking again and again to give and receive, to enjoy and languish, to be taken slowly, then swiftly, soft, and then hard. Their pleasure had seemed endless, and insatiable. Every time Minako thought she couldn’t take anymore, he managed to prove her wrong. Every time, Kunzite gritted his teeth, she showed him he shouldn’t.
But now. Minako had found him, and he was hers again, truly. But now what?
Was he not still sworn to Endymion? Was she not still Serenity’s?
So many things were different. No war. No alliance. Same planet. Same side. Same people. But so different.
Minako knew Endymion and Serenity would bless the union, but what of her responsibilities and duties? She could not honestly put Serenity first in her life, when Kunzite had always been a close second. And that was when he didn’t exist in her memory.
Now, was she to choose again? When Serenity needed her the most?
And Kunzite. After everything that happened, Kunzite would always choose Endymion - maybe even before all that had occurred. Minako suspected that Kunzite’s choices would hardly have altered despite anything that may have happened.
Minako wanted to feel what every girl in her position should feel. Satisfaction. Love. Contentment. Pleasure. Delight.
She wanted to wonder if he would make her breakfast and let her borrow a shirt. If they would spend the day together, or part awkwardly when he awoke.
Instead, she felt angry that nothing in her life could be simple. She felt cheated, that the one soul that could sooth her scars would not stay to do so. By his own choice.
And by hers.