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well valentine day was nice. i liked what jeramie got me and he was really happy with what i got him. ashlee and i went shoping for stuff, her for gary, and me for jeramie. last night i went to kobes for the first time with my mom and her best friend and husband. afterwards we went to post time then to kerymans pub. i had to get jeramie so i left and came back and played some more pool then went home. i havent been able to sleep much, hince the reason for me being up this early. really the problem is that i go to bed so late and then get up right before i have to take jeramie to work at 4 then do the same thing over and over and over. plus lately i have been feeling like shit. not like sick feeling, just like blah. life feels so boring and meaningless lately. i have been so bored that i actualy went up to scc the other day to see about just going to the classes to get my ged. after talking to her i changed my mind. i would have to take the damn tabe test to see if i can go straight into ged prep classes even though they have my fcat scores and they were really high. i wouldnt get my ged till july or so anyway. the lady also said i could go back to school and take classes online but i would still have to attend a few classes there and i wouldnt graduate untill after the summer. so either way i go i'll still be getting a piece of paper around sep. i just need to fucking get a job no matter where it is. i dont give a shit at this point. i just have to do something to get out of the fucking house and keep me busy and get my tired so i will actually go to sleep at a decent hour. if it wasnt for jeramie living with me i probobly would have alrealy gone up to my dads. the only thing is im sure i would eventually get bored up there too, unless i could actually get a job. idk anymore. my mood swings are fucking crazy. i get way more pissed off at things then i should. mostly it has to do with jeramie but it's always over stupid little shit that i dont even mean to get pissed over, but i do. sometimes i cant wait for him to go, and other times idk what im going to do. im going to miss him when he leaves thats for sure. hopefully things will suck for him when he gets up there so he will want to come back, but i know thats just really selfish for me to say, but hey, i can be selfish once in a while; especially if it's over him. well im starting to feel a little tired so i am going to attemp to try and go to sleep.