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just when i thought things couldnt get any worse, they have. my grandma died fri at around 5:40. her funeral is tues jan 16 at 2:00. i am going to miss her so fucking much. then i find out jeramie is moving to connecticut in the next few weeks. i am loosing everyone i care about. so i decided i am going to get my ged within the next week or two and then i am going to go up to my dads in the next month or so and get away from everyone and everything. i feel bad leaving my mom and grandpa behind though. im really down and sad right now and i just want to get away. i am going to get a job up there and just live life as a hill billy for a while till i get some money saved up then i am going to come back down, and maybe get my own place. hopefully i will be able to get my own place after im 18 and if i can i told jeramie he is going to move back down and live with me. the family's financial situation seems to be really good right now and it is only going to get better. wed we are going to sit down and deel with what my grandma left us. my mom and grandpa decided that they want me to deal with everything and we are just going to reinvest half of what she leaves. my grandma did good investing so i think its the best idea. i get to keep half of her ashes, which im happy about. plus i told my mom and gramps that i want to keep her ring that she wore forever and they said that is ok too. im thinking of putting it on a chain so i can wear it around my neck or something. im really going to miss her. not only was she my grandma, but my bestfriend and like a second mom. me and her were more alike that her and her daughter and then i was to my mom. thats just how it is in our family, everything skips a generation. so im anxious to see what the next week and month is going to bring.