Bang Bang
well i start school tomorrow....exciting. i dont want to start now, but i need to get done as soon as i can so i dont have to stay in school. im so tired of it. if i didnt think my mom would care and i wouldnt have to hear her bitch at me i would have already signed up to get my GED. the test really isnt that hard and shit, i would be done in no time. that would mean no more school. Then i can get me a job and then worry about getting into college. That's really what i'm looking forward to, going to the culinary arts school in orlando.
when i go back to school that's pretty much all i am going to be doing. hopefully i will be getting a job soon, then i can go back to doing nothing but going to school and work. i dont mind it really. i only go to school from 9:00 to 12:45 mon, wed, and fri, and 9:00 to 2:45 tues and thurs. so least i dont have to be there so early.
ashlee and i are barely talking. i went up to see her at work a few times. i went up there on her break last night and we talked for a bit, had a few laughs, just a casual conversation pretty much. it sucks, but i guess it's better this way, she seems a bit happier. i do miss her, but i guess there isnt much i can do at this point, what's happened has happened.
jeramie and i have come to a conclusion about our relationship. seems it's best that were just good friends for now. we had a long talk after and interesting night. i'm glad we finally did, i have been wanting to have one with him anyway. i found out what i wanted to, so im pretty happy. it sucks that this is how it is, but i guess its for the best. If he called me and needed help with something, or wanted to talk about something on his mind or whatever i wouldnt have any problem with it, but other than that it's best that i just try not to have much to do with him. i mean i love hanging out with him, but it just makes things harder.
I'm sure everything will work out in the end, but for now, i'll just keep to myself.
when i go back to school that's pretty much all i am going to be doing. hopefully i will be getting a job soon, then i can go back to doing nothing but going to school and work. i dont mind it really. i only go to school from 9:00 to 12:45 mon, wed, and fri, and 9:00 to 2:45 tues and thurs. so least i dont have to be there so early.
ashlee and i are barely talking. i went up to see her at work a few times. i went up there on her break last night and we talked for a bit, had a few laughs, just a casual conversation pretty much. it sucks, but i guess it's better this way, she seems a bit happier. i do miss her, but i guess there isnt much i can do at this point, what's happened has happened.
jeramie and i have come to a conclusion about our relationship. seems it's best that were just good friends for now. we had a long talk after and interesting night. i'm glad we finally did, i have been wanting to have one with him anyway. i found out what i wanted to, so im pretty happy. it sucks that this is how it is, but i guess its for the best. If he called me and needed help with something, or wanted to talk about something on his mind or whatever i wouldnt have any problem with it, but other than that it's best that i just try not to have much to do with him. i mean i love hanging out with him, but it just makes things harder.
I'm sure everything will work out in the end, but for now, i'll just keep to myself.