Pity The Life
Life is a gift (or so the saying is). Sometimes a gift can break, get beat up, get abused or even lost or stolen. But a gift should should be treasured and well taken care of, if not of course it'll break on you. What I am getting to is if you don't take care of your life, of course it's going to break down on you and so fourth.
I trace my steps and look back and realized I didn't quite really take care of my life. I've realized that I abused it, trampled on it, and lost track of it. I could say it got stolen here and there but I won't necessarily go there. I done a few bad things in my life and i sorta regret it. From it, it has left marks or scars in my mind, on my body, paper, records, and even in peoples' minds. I want to erase it all. I want it wiped off from the face of the earth. But of course it won't happen. So many times have I screwed up in life and life is just swirling down the toilet drain.
I've realized this and that. I can fix this. I know I can't change the past, I can sorta change the present but most definitely I can change the future. I totally screwed up. But I will motivate myself to take care of my life a little more and maybe good things will turn up. I mean I thought about it, if i didn't abuse my money on stupid things, I wouldn't be in the situation I am, if I didn't abuse my friends and family then they wouldn't look at me differently. Or perhaps if i didn't abuse my car, it wouldn't of broke on me. I did a lot of stupid things and I realized that has affected my life greatly and I never really seemed to notice that it was because of my actions. Sure there are reasons behind the actions but the reasons are not good enough because they're just excuses. I've realized that all I ever did was complain and never tried to fix the problem. I wish I had spoken sooner about things before it all went to the trash. My life is pitiful.
I trace my steps and look back and realized I didn't quite really take care of my life. I've realized that I abused it, trampled on it, and lost track of it. I could say it got stolen here and there but I won't necessarily go there. I done a few bad things in my life and i sorta regret it. From it, it has left marks or scars in my mind, on my body, paper, records, and even in peoples' minds. I want to erase it all. I want it wiped off from the face of the earth. But of course it won't happen. So many times have I screwed up in life and life is just swirling down the toilet drain.
I've realized this and that. I can fix this. I know I can't change the past, I can sorta change the present but most definitely I can change the future. I totally screwed up. But I will motivate myself to take care of my life a little more and maybe good things will turn up. I mean I thought about it, if i didn't abuse my money on stupid things, I wouldn't be in the situation I am, if I didn't abuse my friends and family then they wouldn't look at me differently. Or perhaps if i didn't abuse my car, it wouldn't of broke on me. I did a lot of stupid things and I realized that has affected my life greatly and I never really seemed to notice that it was because of my actions. Sure there are reasons behind the actions but the reasons are not good enough because they're just excuses. I've realized that all I ever did was complain and never tried to fix the problem. I wish I had spoken sooner about things before it all went to the trash. My life is pitiful.