[Fanfiction] undecided
Title : undecided
Author : dheechan
Pairing : Miyavi X kai
Genre : Romance, slight angst
Rating : PG
Disclaimer : I own nothing, just hate the fact that Miyavi is Melody’s now
Summary : now here I am, standing idly in front his hotel room, tried to gather all the courage that take me flew for a thousand mile to another continent, but it’s suddenly disappear when I was enter this hotel.
‘I’m okay…just empty…I’m exhausted’
He wrote it on his own twit 24 hour ago. Another complained twit from him. I know It’s ridiculous, following his twit, acted like his crazy fans, just to get some tiny information about someone that ever had shared life with. The one that I ever love and always loved.
Maybe it’s the best way now, for being one his fans. Because it’s the only way to keep me close to him, to make me know a little thing that happen in his life, because after his wedding, we never communicated each other, the only communication that happen, is one email that he sent fifth month ago, that make me cried every time I read it, but I have no courage to delete it.
One day I met his wife, on mall when she went shopping for their baby needs. She sure looks different. At that time I just feel that she wasn’t the sexy woman who stole him. She just looks like…argh I just can’t explain it coz the jealousy took control my mind, but at the end she is the winner and I was the looser. Because until the end of the day I will be the looser, if what he need is to have a normal family and has lots of babies who definitely I can’t give it.
I know I’m so stupid, I do hate him and until today I still can’t forgive him for what he ever done. But at the same time I love him so much and it’s too deep, till I can’t separate those feeling, and it’s make me crazy.
When he said he’s sick, it’s worried me so damn much, he is sick when he’s so far from japan, he’s accompany with just some staff that worried me even more. Its make me want to be close to him, to take care of him. So now here I am, standing idly in front his hotel room, tried to gather all the courage that take me flew for a thousand mile to another continent, but it’s suddenly disappear when I was enter this hotel.
Maybe it’s the climax from my stupidity. I knock the door twice then wait for him to open the door, shivering. And the hotel door is open, he looks so awful yet handsome, he stay still from a shock, try to adjust my unpredictable present.
“I heard you sick, so I flew here. So I can take care of you”
He smile nearly cry, there no one words that left from his mouth, he just hug me so tight, and whispering some words…” thanks Kai, I miss you so damn much”
*** Owari ***
a/n : the third part of my miyavi X kai fiction dheechan.livejournal.com/5017.html and dheechan.livejournal.com/13101.html
I know there will be a lots of mistake, sorry for my bad english and C & C are welcome