please keep discrete my friends
im not keen on the way things are going in my life especially considering all last week i went out and kept busy. i spent far to much time at bars over pints and pitchers. this is exactly what i want to get away from... but i cant bare to be alone. i want to go out and have fun with my mates.
what also concerns me is my behaviour and patterns. My inability to be single perplexes me. i have not been single for the past 5 years. i have always been with someone.... there has never been a moarning/ "accepted i was single" period for me, ive gone from one relationship to another... when i drink i notice that i flirt with men even in the company of a date. what causes me to act in such a manner aside from inhabitions that hefty alcohol consumtion intales. why do i long for the security of being in a relationship?.... why im i in dire need of male attention especially a " more than friends" form of attention?.. why cant i be alone/single?... why do i hate it so much?... i would really apprecaite your thoughts... because from a psychological stand point im lost.... however i do feel i have serious dependency issues. i really would like to over coem this because it is a problem. i want to break the cycle... little help? merci
what also concerns me is my behaviour and patterns. My inability to be single perplexes me. i have not been single for the past 5 years. i have always been with someone.... there has never been a moarning/ "accepted i was single" period for me, ive gone from one relationship to another... when i drink i notice that i flirt with men even in the company of a date. what causes me to act in such a manner aside from inhabitions that hefty alcohol consumtion intales. why do i long for the security of being in a relationship?.... why im i in dire need of male attention especially a " more than friends" form of attention?.. why cant i be alone/single?... why do i hate it so much?... i would really apprecaite your thoughts... because from a psychological stand point im lost.... however i do feel i have serious dependency issues. i really would like to over coem this because it is a problem. i want to break the cycle... little help? merci