The Gift of Malaise
The Gift of Malaise
I just took five days off. I didn't do anything. I didn't answer my email, answer the phone, or go anywhere. I simply didn't have the energy or motivation to do so. It's happened before during intense energy download times. But this time was different, in that I did not have the absolutely devastating depression that used to hit me during these times.
It may be a matter of perspective. Maybe I've just learned that this isn't depression, it's just malaise. Just the void, the emptiness that comes before the refilling of the Spirit. As I've said in other articles, and as I've learned from other teachers, we're so unfamiliar with peace it sometimes feels like depression. What a concept, huh? But I don't think that's all of it. I think I'm different, now, too. I'm through with the depressions. The emptying out. The dredging up of all my worst demons, and the battles with the dark ones. I earned my stripes along with my insights, and now I recognize, accept, and eventually embrace the downtimes.
This malaise has been frustrating, as they all are for me, but now, as I'm coming out the other side (Thank you GOD!), I can see the absolutely amazing gifts it has afforded me. During this time, I learned what was REALLY important to me. What my heart truly wanted, rather than what my head wanted. Those things that my head wanted, that I pursued out of some sense of need or fear or restlessness or desperation, for the money or the fame or the acceptance...I had NO energy for a single one of those things. They all fell away. I just absolutely COULD NOT do them. I felt sick to even think about it. But things that truly had resonance for me, that my SOUL wanted...those things I was able to still find energy for...and joy in. And now, as the malaise is lifting and I'm able to go back to doing the unimportant things as well as the important ones, the gift I'm left with is...I know the difference! I know which of the projects I'm involved in have the most backing from my Higher Self, my soul, my purpose. And I know which activities I've participated in out of some other motivation. Honestly, I'm a bit surprised by some of them. They didn't fall out in the categories I expected!
Maybe this period of emptiness has given you the same gift. Maybe now you know what things, activities, projects, and even people really FEED your soul...and which ones actually drain you. When we're not in the malaise, we don't feel the drain. We're used to spending our energy recklessly on things that don't matter, things that aren't in resonance with who we truly are. But in the malaise, we FEEL it, because we only have enough for what really, really matters.
What has this one taught you?
Love in the Highest Octave,
Satina
http://www.dharmawork.com
Please feel free to share this work for the Highest Good of all. Just keep my contact info intact. Thanks!
I just took five days off. I didn't do anything. I didn't answer my email, answer the phone, or go anywhere. I simply didn't have the energy or motivation to do so. It's happened before during intense energy download times. But this time was different, in that I did not have the absolutely devastating depression that used to hit me during these times.
It may be a matter of perspective. Maybe I've just learned that this isn't depression, it's just malaise. Just the void, the emptiness that comes before the refilling of the Spirit. As I've said in other articles, and as I've learned from other teachers, we're so unfamiliar with peace it sometimes feels like depression. What a concept, huh? But I don't think that's all of it. I think I'm different, now, too. I'm through with the depressions. The emptying out. The dredging up of all my worst demons, and the battles with the dark ones. I earned my stripes along with my insights, and now I recognize, accept, and eventually embrace the downtimes.
This malaise has been frustrating, as they all are for me, but now, as I'm coming out the other side (Thank you GOD!), I can see the absolutely amazing gifts it has afforded me. During this time, I learned what was REALLY important to me. What my heart truly wanted, rather than what my head wanted. Those things that my head wanted, that I pursued out of some sense of need or fear or restlessness or desperation, for the money or the fame or the acceptance...I had NO energy for a single one of those things. They all fell away. I just absolutely COULD NOT do them. I felt sick to even think about it. But things that truly had resonance for me, that my SOUL wanted...those things I was able to still find energy for...and joy in. And now, as the malaise is lifting and I'm able to go back to doing the unimportant things as well as the important ones, the gift I'm left with is...I know the difference! I know which of the projects I'm involved in have the most backing from my Higher Self, my soul, my purpose. And I know which activities I've participated in out of some other motivation. Honestly, I'm a bit surprised by some of them. They didn't fall out in the categories I expected!
Maybe this period of emptiness has given you the same gift. Maybe now you know what things, activities, projects, and even people really FEED your soul...and which ones actually drain you. When we're not in the malaise, we don't feel the drain. We're used to spending our energy recklessly on things that don't matter, things that aren't in resonance with who we truly are. But in the malaise, we FEEL it, because we only have enough for what really, really matters.
What has this one taught you?
Love in the Highest Octave,
Satina
http://www.dharmawork.com
Please feel free to share this work for the Highest Good of all. Just keep my contact info intact. Thanks!