All starry eyed and shit......
Well I guess its been a while since I wrote in this journal so I think Ill have at it. For those of us browsing in this journal we should start by clarifying that Cate and I are over. She shall always remain one of my dearest friends and best teacher of lifes little travesties and tribulations. So when I get that starry eyed look while staring over the dance floor at CITY CLUB, its just remenisence of good memories and times that will be missed. Its hard now because its been three and a half years since Ive been truely alone and for those of you who know the feeling....a big bed can be a lonely place when your used to waking up next to someone. Meals a bit lonelier and movies sometimes bring a flood of memories. I really put everything I had into that relationship and now that everything I had wasent enough it makes me feel like I came up short somehow. It would have made it easier if we fucked each other over somehow and could hate one another.But the fact is we are still very good friends. We werent at the same place in lifes path I guess!? So on I go to find my way. Im about to start yoga teachers training and am trying to delve in as much spiritual, artistic, philosophical, social, and personal expansion I can. I am weary about dating again as I have definite trust issues after Cate. Not trust in deceving people per say, more that Im gonna get hooked up with someone who wont truly know what path they walk and will end up abandoning me again. So Im gonna take the dating thing real slowly for the time being. Not to sound to negative on that aspect.I really do enjoy getting to know people and the deep levels or their persona and kind of look forward to that aspect of dating. On that note put on the fancy duds and let the line form to the left. Big daddy Kev is back!! What!??! You didnt expect me to stay down for long did ya? ...And deprive the ladies(and maybe a couple of boys) the chance to get to know me. Other than being dashing,daring,charming,elegant,suave,sophisticated,classy,a snappy dresser,resiliant,radiant,well read,adorable,honest etc etc etc. I am also an amazing lay! Ask anyone who knows me....any one at all and they will agree that Id say the same things about myself a hundred times over! hehehe on that note, I do look forward to whatever path I must follow and am glad I have had the opportunity to know you all.