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I have, most certainly, come to one of those points in life where you have to deside what matters and what just isn't worth holding on to.
I've come to a point where I need to know who I can count on. More over, I need to admit who I can trust. I need to look at the drama of the last decade and figure out who is worth it and why. In some cases, I don't actually like the answers, who I keep or who I turn away, but they are the answers I've come up with.
So, I know that the people I like and the people I trust are not always the same people. Sadly, simply being fun does not earn my respect. And just because I trust you, doesn't mean I want to involve you in my personal life, as there are people I trust only because I know their limitations and flaws well enough to trust when they would let me down.
With that said, I am moving on with my life. Some of this is a long time over due, and some comes from choices I am not even fully comfortable with.
I have lost my family. I have had so much taken from me. I have been through a personal hell. And I have come through with perspective.
I know who my friends are. I know who I can count on. I don't have room for people who want my attention only for their own needs or wants. I cannot give any more to people who don't give back. I won't. I'm needed elsewhere.
I've come to a point where I need to know who I can count on. More over, I need to admit who I can trust. I need to look at the drama of the last decade and figure out who is worth it and why. In some cases, I don't actually like the answers, who I keep or who I turn away, but they are the answers I've come up with.
So, I know that the people I like and the people I trust are not always the same people. Sadly, simply being fun does not earn my respect. And just because I trust you, doesn't mean I want to involve you in my personal life, as there are people I trust only because I know their limitations and flaws well enough to trust when they would let me down.
With that said, I am moving on with my life. Some of this is a long time over due, and some comes from choices I am not even fully comfortable with.
I have lost my family. I have had so much taken from me. I have been through a personal hell. And I have come through with perspective.
I know who my friends are. I know who I can count on. I don't have room for people who want my attention only for their own needs or wants. I cannot give any more to people who don't give back. I won't. I'm needed elsewhere.