About Me
I should be preparing for my class that starts in 56 minutes. But I'm not. Instead, I'm contemplating my nature.
I don't think I'm ever going to be a very good teacher. Not because I'm unable - I know that I could become excellent, and I could even give you a list of 10 things I could start doing immediately that would help me improve. I'm smart enough for it.
No, I'm never going to be very good at this job because I'm lazy. I just don't feel like working hard, and I would need to to become a good teacher. I'm just not interested enough in the teaching to obsess about it the way I can about whatever my obsession-of-the-week is.
I haven't decided what to do about this. Do I keep teaching, lazy-style, and never get as good as I could get because I just don't care enough? Do I cut my losses and go to a boring job that forces me to work by virtue of having me sit in a room surrounded by other busily working people? Do I find a way to make the one thing I am not lazy about - studying and learning whatever has caught my fancy this week - into money? Do I marry a neurologist, lawyer, or independently wealthy trust-fund baby so I don't have to worry about money?
I don't know.
I don't think I'm ever going to be a very good teacher. Not because I'm unable - I know that I could become excellent, and I could even give you a list of 10 things I could start doing immediately that would help me improve. I'm smart enough for it.
No, I'm never going to be very good at this job because I'm lazy. I just don't feel like working hard, and I would need to to become a good teacher. I'm just not interested enough in the teaching to obsess about it the way I can about whatever my obsession-of-the-week is.
I haven't decided what to do about this. Do I keep teaching, lazy-style, and never get as good as I could get because I just don't care enough? Do I cut my losses and go to a boring job that forces me to work by virtue of having me sit in a room surrounded by other busily working people? Do I find a way to make the one thing I am not lazy about - studying and learning whatever has caught my fancy this week - into money? Do I marry a neurologist, lawyer, or independently wealthy trust-fund baby so I don't have to worry about money?
I don't know.