Some thoughts...
Now I know most of you don't read this, or if you do, it's not really life altering for you, but I wanted to share with you a few thoughts of mine...
Camp: Now that camps over, I look back and I realize how much I let myself down...I let myself get wrapped up in self-ish staff, in high-school drama and in dumb politics. There were things I wanted to do this summer that I never did. There are children that I wanted to teach, to meet and to impact, and I wonder if I did that. I got so wrapped up in having the politics and caring if people liked me and taking their b*tchy things to heart that I wasted the summer.
That makes me sad.
Wedding: I can't believe its getting so close! Today is 50 days from the wedding...amazing, huh? 50 days and I'll be in a damn dress :-) I mean, marrying Matt... I'm pretty excited about it, but I'm frustrated with all of the small details...it's really annoying to have so many expectations from people, so much BS to work through... It's rude to do xyz, it's rude not to do abc...etc.
I have to invite so-and-so because we were invited to their wife's cousins mothers brothers wedding, etc. I have a total of 10 people or so that are friends of matt and I that are invited this first round. A wedding is supposed to be a celebration of Matt and I's lives, our life together...and we get the short-end of the guest-list stick... I know this is a common problem, but it's still frustrating. There are a ton of people that I'd like to invite if I get the chance, I just hope they understand why I couldn't invite them first round....then again, most of those people I've lost constant touch with and only talk to occasionally.
There's more I want to talk about, there's more I want to write about, but I don't know where to go from here...it's a lot of confusion in my head, and its frustrating, because normally, I'm not this confused in my head...
Maybe when I get it straightened out, I will be able to write about it.
Maybe I'll never get it straightened out..
Hmm.
*Me*
Camp: Now that camps over, I look back and I realize how much I let myself down...I let myself get wrapped up in self-ish staff, in high-school drama and in dumb politics. There were things I wanted to do this summer that I never did. There are children that I wanted to teach, to meet and to impact, and I wonder if I did that. I got so wrapped up in having the politics and caring if people liked me and taking their b*tchy things to heart that I wasted the summer.
That makes me sad.
Wedding: I can't believe its getting so close! Today is 50 days from the wedding...amazing, huh? 50 days and I'll be in a damn dress :-) I mean, marrying Matt... I'm pretty excited about it, but I'm frustrated with all of the small details...it's really annoying to have so many expectations from people, so much BS to work through... It's rude to do xyz, it's rude not to do abc...etc.
I have to invite so-and-so because we were invited to their wife's cousins mothers brothers wedding, etc. I have a total of 10 people or so that are friends of matt and I that are invited this first round. A wedding is supposed to be a celebration of Matt and I's lives, our life together...and we get the short-end of the guest-list stick... I know this is a common problem, but it's still frustrating. There are a ton of people that I'd like to invite if I get the chance, I just hope they understand why I couldn't invite them first round....then again, most of those people I've lost constant touch with and only talk to occasionally.
There's more I want to talk about, there's more I want to write about, but I don't know where to go from here...it's a lot of confusion in my head, and its frustrating, because normally, I'm not this confused in my head...
Maybe when I get it straightened out, I will be able to write about it.
Maybe I'll never get it straightened out..
Hmm.
*Me*