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Tonight didn't really settle me, or upset me... Maybe I'm numb *shrugs*
My ears feel like they need to pop...
...I'm sorri I made yew cry.. :( What did I say? :/
Man the last few days have just been a whirlwind of anxious, stressy, overthinking, bitchiness.... Today was a little better. Started not so bad... course when your hopes are up for something (even when you KNOW its never going to happen today... or tomorrow), everything is super! Then I went back to sleep... I couldn't take just sitting there waiting for nothing... Woke up bitchy of course. Knew I would, I have for the past 3 days. Only problem today was battery didnt start... again.... :c This only increased said bitchy mood by about a million percent. Called Sarah (poor Sarah.. *sighs*) told her I was walking and I'd be a lil late. I had time to cool off and cry on the way... Work was slow. Had a friend come and talk to me the last hour or so and that helped the time go by and keep me outta my head. :) I really enjoy the little blessings like that...
He showed up at exactly 8 oclock to take me home :) Spent a few hours chillin. Played the game. Watched cartoons :3 Talked... cried... laughed... I dunno wth is going on still, haha! But I said what I needed to say. He finally told me a few things I needed to hear. And now he's gone. So I just kinda walked around the house aimlessly for about ten minutes... Washed stuff that was already clean... Stared at the tv for a few min and now I'm in my room randomly staring off into space waiting for confirmation he made it home ok.
Tomorrow is going to be very interesting. Sarah has invited herself to chill and due to HER recent car issue's, I didnt have the heart to refuse. I'd rather her drink her little trippy drink crap at the house where I can watch her than somewhere with ppl she barely knows who will be drinking and who knows what else.... Plug and Green are bringin gumbo (yummeh). Chris says he may join us, but who knows. Not sure of party favors yet... Sarah wants me to try this drink mix we have at the shop, but thats not mah idea of a good evening... Wonderland on the other hand... its been a while since i've been there :\
My ears feel like they need to pop...
...I'm sorri I made yew cry.. :( What did I say? :/
Man the last few days have just been a whirlwind of anxious, stressy, overthinking, bitchiness.... Today was a little better. Started not so bad... course when your hopes are up for something (even when you KNOW its never going to happen today... or tomorrow), everything is super! Then I went back to sleep... I couldn't take just sitting there waiting for nothing... Woke up bitchy of course. Knew I would, I have for the past 3 days. Only problem today was battery didnt start... again.... :c This only increased said bitchy mood by about a million percent. Called Sarah (poor Sarah.. *sighs*) told her I was walking and I'd be a lil late. I had time to cool off and cry on the way... Work was slow. Had a friend come and talk to me the last hour or so and that helped the time go by and keep me outta my head. :) I really enjoy the little blessings like that...
He showed up at exactly 8 oclock to take me home :) Spent a few hours chillin. Played the game. Watched cartoons :3 Talked... cried... laughed... I dunno wth is going on still, haha! But I said what I needed to say. He finally told me a few things I needed to hear. And now he's gone. So I just kinda walked around the house aimlessly for about ten minutes... Washed stuff that was already clean... Stared at the tv for a few min and now I'm in my room randomly staring off into space waiting for confirmation he made it home ok.
Tomorrow is going to be very interesting. Sarah has invited herself to chill and due to HER recent car issue's, I didnt have the heart to refuse. I'd rather her drink her little trippy drink crap at the house where I can watch her than somewhere with ppl she barely knows who will be drinking and who knows what else.... Plug and Green are bringin gumbo (yummeh). Chris says he may join us, but who knows. Not sure of party favors yet... Sarah wants me to try this drink mix we have at the shop, but thats not mah idea of a good evening... Wonderland on the other hand... its been a while since i've been there :\