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So how about you slack up a bit and read this entry hmm?
okay, because i love my father. he's letting me update. looks like thats all i'm allowed to do. okay so this is what happened lastnight. i got in the truck, and he said, "I'm going to do this as quickly and painfully as possible, you're grounded from everything" and that was when the fight broke in. it consisted of me crying. haha surprise surprise. and then i told him the reasons why my grades slipped. because in all honesty, they've never gotten that bad. not since like 6th grade. so i'm grounded from the TV, my stereo, going out, and i can't get on AOL. but. i happened to cheat them on the aol, and stereo. haha i got my brothers headphones. and, i got on AOL on my phone. anddd. i had drew get on, while i was on the phone with him. i was actually hoping the secret crush would get on, (name to be mentioned in further entries) but sadly he didn't. so i'm stuck. cause i do want to talk to him. haha. anyways. but, lastnight i got to go over to matt and janice's for a total of 5 minutes. WOO go dez. it was kind of pathetic. because i went over there crying because i just got out of the truck and i got to talk to him. but they all understood because they all know what a complete jackass my parents are. so they let me cry and complain in the whole 5 minutes. then ofcourse my father yelled out the door to come in because yes he was in his jackass mood because laurie was home. i didn't know if i should give him a hug or not. but i know now that i will see him tonight. and i will get the hug in. god i really hope he doesn't go... so today. is September 27th. as you all know, if you've been reading the entries is matt's trial dates. well i stopped over at matt and janice's and janices dad, Tommy was there. i walked in and talked to him and he said (*as he was in his drunken state*) that all they were doing was picking the jury, i guess all they have so far is like 3, but that was as of one o clock. tom left because it was boring beings as he can't go in to the court room because he's a witness...what i wouldn't give to be able to go. to show them that i am supporting them god damnit desiree! my parents don't understand. i'm so scared that i'm going to lose him. i don't want to lose anyone else. beings as he can go to jail for up to 20 years. which means i'd be like 35 by the time he got out..and he'd be 48. and he'd miss his daughter growing up. miss her first boyfriend, her first dance..he'd miss everything. i'm pittying for him. and i hope it doesn't happen. its like..Jordan's death all over again. and i hate it. i'm so scared. terrified. and tomarrow my dad wants me to go to this "survivors" thing for people who've been sexually abused and what not. guess who he wants me to go with. Laurie. yeah. because she was in the same situation as i was. and what not. but you see the good news is, if i go. i get my stereo back. so i guess its worth it. i'd rather have the TV but you know. baby steps right? they didn't take away my cellphone so thats all that matters. mm by the way. thanks for the phone call BITCHESSSS. once again i'll post the number 815-343-2209
i was in a community and i found this nice little remedy for cramps. lemonjuice, bread, and a teaspoon of sugar, it works.