Quick write!!!! Let's see what's in my head today........
Tomorrow is todays best kept secret. It'll be spontaneous, to some it may be profane and wicked. If you don't take control today, in time it will seem ungovernable..... and it may very well be. I'm in a point in time in my life where as I look back at my tracks, I see no footsteps of accomplishments. No mark on the sand nor my name on the wall. I got nothing to my name, what I hate the most is that I don't care. Yeah I got things, I got this and I got that, and I too have friends.... but they all have someone deeper than a friend.... I'm happy for them... all of them. There are times when I see so many things at once I lose track of myself. I could be sitting on my bed looking at nothing and noticing everything around me fly by as if I'm in a car looking straight ahead. All my problems, fears, desires, and everything and everyone I've ever lost or destroyed is the wind on my face drying my eyes. I'm being driven around the same block with the window down while nothing new nor interesting entices my to look out. I'm planning an escape...I'm jumping! I know it's going to hurt, I'm scared and afraid but I'm jumping out of this car. If there is to be no floor for me to land on, I'll make one. If all there is to live in is that same repetitive block I despised, I'll destroying it. Brick by brick it's coming down! I could make my own city, or my own country but I choose not to. I'm making an island. You see...every tear i've shed, every time I've bled, and every hit I've taken, all that has gotten me here. And for me to someday row ashore my beautiful girl and invite all my loved ones to my island, I'll be happy, it'll be worth every pain inflicted on me today . I'll admit....I'm in misery, yet I find a lot of things in life very beautiful. All this beauty.....I'm jumping. I'll see all of you who matter and don't mind, on my island. And farewell and to all of you who mind cause you don't matter...not anymore.