To be honest I've been off the whole alcohol wagon for a while. I call it my $500 mistake which was my birthday. I still want to gag whenever I have hard liquor. I'll still drink beer, but I'm not totally into getting shit faced. drugs are still appealing, maybe i'll get to the wall where everyone seems to be hitting right about now.
Nathalie. It's the first time where the position has been turned around on me where she is able to dictate whats going to happen and when its going to happen. I can't dictate the speed at which it travels nor the intensity of the relationship. She's as hot and cold as I am, as ridiculous, and unorganized. It takes forever for her to read emails, messages and return phone calls. But then eventually she does, and its wonderful. I want more. I want it to last longer. But I know i'll just have to take for however long it lasts and then be done with it.