It's amazing how blind I've become

[dewinaglass]

It's my birthday today. Kinda expected to be doing something. Stupid me.

I was supposed to pick up Nicole today, but then she had to make something for someone, so she said she'd call me later. She hasn't called and won't pick up her phone. Wonderful. Nice to know I mean something.

Fuck it. I've been so fucking blind lately. I actually thought I could be happy and that things were gonna go right for me. What was I thinking? The only way to get what you want in life is to be an asshole and treat people like shit. Obviously...

I'm just going to dissapear. I basically already have to most people, so if I just left and said nothing nobody would even notice. It would just leave a vacant motel room. It's not like I actually mean anything to anyone, so why not?

I guess thats it.

It's amazing what you'll find when you just open your eyes
Sometimes love can leave you blind
But still you try
To cover all the lies
And ignore all the signs
Sometimes love can leave you blind

What I thought was a certainty
Has left me spinning in circles again