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I keep meaning to update, but I never know where to begin. I write half updates that get started, but then continue in a spiral like fashion, which gets absolutely nowhere. I'm never able to get to the core of what I want to say. This isnt a recent thing. Its an always thing. What can you do, though? I mean, if you cant get out all of what you mean to say, what's the point.
My thoughts tend to run circles around my head. I cant catch them, I cant even get a long enough glimpse to sketch a silhouette.
And now I'm rambling pointlessly about how I cant clearly express myself, so there's no point in a long, in depth update. There will pretty much always be the fluff on myspace, I think. Well, not always. Spewing my bullshit into the web is cyclic. I do for a while, I dont for a while. Sometimes, I copy everything to a file on my computer and delete the stuff on the web.
Anyway. I'm never in a clear enough state of mind to say what I want. So I dont at all. I'd rather that, than a bunch of unfinished half-assed drafts that repeat themselves over and over. Its not really like I have anything unique to say. I mean, everyone wishes they did, but very very few do, and I highly doubt I'm among that tiny population. I know that I'm a bit odd as a person, but I dont think my thought processes are all that original. I doubt yours are too.
That whole bullshit isnt the only thing bothering me either, but the rest of it, I really dont want to go in to detail on here about. I made a poor decision, which is with me for a couple more months, based on my own faulty memory. AKA No more depo for me ever again. Its causing pretty bad mood swings, among other things. Luckily, though, I'm still losing weight and NOT gaining it! Lets just hope I can keep it up, or at least break even at the end of the day.
Oh and things are still going pretty well up here. : )
TheEnd.
My thoughts tend to run circles around my head. I cant catch them, I cant even get a long enough glimpse to sketch a silhouette.
And now I'm rambling pointlessly about how I cant clearly express myself, so there's no point in a long, in depth update. There will pretty much always be the fluff on myspace, I think. Well, not always. Spewing my bullshit into the web is cyclic. I do for a while, I dont for a while. Sometimes, I copy everything to a file on my computer and delete the stuff on the web.
Anyway. I'm never in a clear enough state of mind to say what I want. So I dont at all. I'd rather that, than a bunch of unfinished half-assed drafts that repeat themselves over and over. Its not really like I have anything unique to say. I mean, everyone wishes they did, but very very few do, and I highly doubt I'm among that tiny population. I know that I'm a bit odd as a person, but I dont think my thought processes are all that original. I doubt yours are too.
That whole bullshit isnt the only thing bothering me either, but the rest of it, I really dont want to go in to detail on here about. I made a poor decision, which is with me for a couple more months, based on my own faulty memory. AKA No more depo for me ever again. Its causing pretty bad mood swings, among other things. Luckily, though, I'm still losing weight and NOT gaining it! Lets just hope I can keep it up, or at least break even at the end of the day.
Oh and things are still going pretty well up here. : )
TheEnd.