a lil bit more of an explanation...
I'm a proud new owner of a boyfriend. Hehe.
I've kind of been seeing him off and on since we met at the end of January. We met at a party in Pacific Beach. He was down here for shoulder surgery. We got to talking... And here's were I was a bit of a fuck up. He invited me to go to Sinbad's with him and Dotti the next day. I was like, I will need to get a ride home. And prolly a place to stay. He said that was fine.
Then he took me to his parent's house in Chula.
The first night I met him.
Yeah, I'm kinda fucking retarded sometimes.
(but i was right and he's a good guy, so there)
It turned out to be a lot of fun though. And he came back down two weeks later. Had a great three day weekend with him and the beach. His birthday, Valentine's day. Complete with retarded-type Mel things. Like a strip of photobooth pictures. Not being able to find Orion. Laying down and kissing in the sand. Well, getting pushed down and then kissing in the sand.
He's been down a few times since then. Once, I was worried about getting too attached and tried to distance myself a bit while he was down here... But that felt weird and the next time was so much fun. Generally, I live at his parents' the weekends he's down. Its nice.
This last time he was down, we went to Beachcomber and fell into the ocean and the sand and got soaked and sandy. It was so much fun. :D
And then he took me back up there with him. Wednesday through Monday.
He's amazing in all those warm fuzzy special senses of the word. He makes me smile and giggle and be happy. If you havent noticed. :P Waking up alone and not cuddling and not having to pick his hair off of me is all lonely. But I'll be back up there soonish. And he's down in September. I just have to try not to freak out about nothing.
Oh and while I was up there, we decided that we're together. Which is GOOD cause I wont get all insecure about ex-girlfriend stuff quite as much. (and also good cause i dont feel guilty at all about asking him to set limitations on their friendship... like not hanging out alone ever)
But yes. Smiley and happy.
Things are looking up tho. Happy.
He makes me feel beautiful and worthy of attention and as though I should be happy and great.
Its odd and nice.
:D
~melly! (no, not smelly)
PS: even tho he doesnt read this, i miss my stanford boy....
I've kind of been seeing him off and on since we met at the end of January. We met at a party in Pacific Beach. He was down here for shoulder surgery. We got to talking... And here's were I was a bit of a fuck up. He invited me to go to Sinbad's with him and Dotti the next day. I was like, I will need to get a ride home. And prolly a place to stay. He said that was fine.
Then he took me to his parent's house in Chula.
The first night I met him.
Yeah, I'm kinda fucking retarded sometimes.
(but i was right and he's a good guy, so there)
It turned out to be a lot of fun though. And he came back down two weeks later. Had a great three day weekend with him and the beach. His birthday, Valentine's day. Complete with retarded-type Mel things. Like a strip of photobooth pictures. Not being able to find Orion. Laying down and kissing in the sand. Well, getting pushed down and then kissing in the sand.
He's been down a few times since then. Once, I was worried about getting too attached and tried to distance myself a bit while he was down here... But that felt weird and the next time was so much fun. Generally, I live at his parents' the weekends he's down. Its nice.
This last time he was down, we went to Beachcomber and fell into the ocean and the sand and got soaked and sandy. It was so much fun. :D
And then he took me back up there with him. Wednesday through Monday.
He's amazing in all those warm fuzzy special senses of the word. He makes me smile and giggle and be happy. If you havent noticed. :P Waking up alone and not cuddling and not having to pick his hair off of me is all lonely. But I'll be back up there soonish. And he's down in September. I just have to try not to freak out about nothing.
Oh and while I was up there, we decided that we're together. Which is GOOD cause I wont get all insecure about ex-girlfriend stuff quite as much. (and also good cause i dont feel guilty at all about asking him to set limitations on their friendship... like not hanging out alone ever)
But yes. Smiley and happy.
Things are looking up tho. Happy.
He makes me feel beautiful and worthy of attention and as though I should be happy and great.
Its odd and nice.
:D
~melly! (no, not smelly)
PS: even tho he doesnt read this, i miss my stanford boy....