truth
Through my entire life, i've come to believe in three ideals: freedom, truth, and love. Even though i believe in them, i do not truly understand them. i've always used to personal experiences in order to interpert them in my life. i've not really had much success, otherwise i'd be a more fullfilled person. tonight, im going to begin to try and change that. so for this quest of enlightenment, i'll be using this blog for that purpose, and that purpose alone.
i'll begin by taking a closer look at 'truth'.
Definition according to Merriam-Webster dictionary:
1 aarchaic : fidelity, constancy b: sincerity in action, character, and utterance
2 a (1): the state of being the case : fact (2): the body of real things, events, and facts : actuality (3)often capitalized : a transcendent fundamental or spiritual reality b: a judgment, proposition, or idea that is true or accepted as true c: the body of true statements and propositions
3 a: the property (as of a statement) of being in accord with fact or reality bchiefly British : true 2 c: fidelity to an original or to a standard
4capitalized Christian Science : god
- in truth : in accordance with fact : actually
Since im trying to understand my "truth", i must my own perceptions and experiences. here i will list out every truth i believe in and my interpertations of each one.
remember, a quest for enlightment is very serious, tiring and difficult.
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what i percieve is truth--every sensation(smell, touch, sound, taste, sight) that i experience is real and true. but there is the possiblity that what i percieve could be false. i.e. what i see as the color red could look completly different in the eyes of another person(proven fact). so if the color of the same object is different for two different people, how can i trust that my senses are real and also true? i cant.
realization #1-- i cannot rely on my senses and the perceptions stemming from them, to be real or true. i cannot exclude them on my search as they are evidence none the less, but they must not be allowed to be the basis of my quest for enlightenment.
people need interaction with other people-- every person has an overwhelming desire to be with other people in one form or another. people strike up conversations with total strangers for no appearant reason other then just to talk. kids find other kids to play. the most popular sports are team sports. adults and teenagers date other people in order to find a companion, someone that is their "true love". we go to parties to meet new people and to interact with those we already know. extroverted people tend to be much more direct in their approach to interact with people. including being a prankster/jokester, a leader and others. introverted people by by a social view, are more "anti-social" so to speak. they tend to keep to themselves. but they still strive to interact with other human beings. their approach just tends to be much more subtle. people will also try to interact with others by being rude or mean spirited while others use sadness or pity in order to have the attention drawn to them. the point is, people want to be around other people. they want that companionship and interaction in their lives. but on a whole, the human race has a hard problem with it. there is a sense that no matter what we are still alone. very few people actually find that companionship or interaction, yet and overwhelming majority of people sabotage themselves once they find companionship or a closeness with other people. why is it that we suffer when we cannot find the closeness or intimacy with other human being but once we get get to closer to that goal, we sabotage ourselves? people in solitary confinment suffer mentally and yet everyday normal people cannot find closeness with someone or they sabotage their efforts.
realization #2-- on a personal level, are my problems interacting and connecting to other people a result from the fear of losing my individuality if i become too close to someone else? or is it that i have an unknown fear of the possiblities of really connecting with another person? i believe the two fears(fear of loss of individuality, fear of the unknown) are both underlying causes and connected. it seems that the importance of individuality and the fear of the unknown have a greater importance in each persons lives then i had thought.
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its past one thirty in the morning. i could go on for hours but i should sleep. so far i dont know if i -need- sleep but i'll continue with that habit on the safe side. haha. besides, i have to contemplate these two realizations more.
also...i will give myself challenges relating to my realizations in order to further my experiences and to grow as a person.
Challenge #1--as a challenge to myself, with every realization i make, i must not only remember them but analyze my actions(as well as my life) using my realizations.
for example, realization #2: i tried to connect with others via this blog and a bulletin i posted on myspace relating to this blog. yet i didnt try to talk to someone directly about all of this. was that because there was no one around or was it because im afraid of the possiblities of sharing something as important as this is with someone else?
Challenge #2--(directly related to challenge #1) find one person and share with them this quest and what it means to me. i must talk with this person in..um...person.(haha not intended) i will also write down my emotions, perceptions, and what was said(not for word of course).
geeze, good night.
i'll begin by taking a closer look at 'truth'.
Definition according to Merriam-Webster dictionary:
1 aarchaic : fidelity, constancy b: sincerity in action, character, and utterance
2 a (1): the state of being the case : fact (2): the body of real things, events, and facts : actuality (3)often capitalized : a transcendent fundamental or spiritual reality b: a judgment, proposition, or idea that is true or accepted as true c: the body of true statements and propositions
3 a: the property (as of a statement) of being in accord with fact or reality bchiefly British : true 2 c: fidelity to an original or to a standard
4capitalized Christian Science : god
- in truth : in accordance with fact : actually
Since im trying to understand my "truth", i must my own perceptions and experiences. here i will list out every truth i believe in and my interpertations of each one.
remember, a quest for enlightment is very serious, tiring and difficult.
--
what i percieve is truth--every sensation(smell, touch, sound, taste, sight) that i experience is real and true. but there is the possiblity that what i percieve could be false. i.e. what i see as the color red could look completly different in the eyes of another person(proven fact). so if the color of the same object is different for two different people, how can i trust that my senses are real and also true? i cant.
realization #1-- i cannot rely on my senses and the perceptions stemming from them, to be real or true. i cannot exclude them on my search as they are evidence none the less, but they must not be allowed to be the basis of my quest for enlightenment.
people need interaction with other people-- every person has an overwhelming desire to be with other people in one form or another. people strike up conversations with total strangers for no appearant reason other then just to talk. kids find other kids to play. the most popular sports are team sports. adults and teenagers date other people in order to find a companion, someone that is their "true love". we go to parties to meet new people and to interact with those we already know. extroverted people tend to be much more direct in their approach to interact with people. including being a prankster/jokester, a leader and others. introverted people by by a social view, are more "anti-social" so to speak. they tend to keep to themselves. but they still strive to interact with other human beings. their approach just tends to be much more subtle. people will also try to interact with others by being rude or mean spirited while others use sadness or pity in order to have the attention drawn to them. the point is, people want to be around other people. they want that companionship and interaction in their lives. but on a whole, the human race has a hard problem with it. there is a sense that no matter what we are still alone. very few people actually find that companionship or interaction, yet and overwhelming majority of people sabotage themselves once they find companionship or a closeness with other people. why is it that we suffer when we cannot find the closeness or intimacy with other human being but once we get get to closer to that goal, we sabotage ourselves? people in solitary confinment suffer mentally and yet everyday normal people cannot find closeness with someone or they sabotage their efforts.
realization #2-- on a personal level, are my problems interacting and connecting to other people a result from the fear of losing my individuality if i become too close to someone else? or is it that i have an unknown fear of the possiblities of really connecting with another person? i believe the two fears(fear of loss of individuality, fear of the unknown) are both underlying causes and connected. it seems that the importance of individuality and the fear of the unknown have a greater importance in each persons lives then i had thought.
---
its past one thirty in the morning. i could go on for hours but i should sleep. so far i dont know if i -need- sleep but i'll continue with that habit on the safe side. haha. besides, i have to contemplate these two realizations more.
also...i will give myself challenges relating to my realizations in order to further my experiences and to grow as a person.
Challenge #1--as a challenge to myself, with every realization i make, i must not only remember them but analyze my actions(as well as my life) using my realizations.
for example, realization #2: i tried to connect with others via this blog and a bulletin i posted on myspace relating to this blog. yet i didnt try to talk to someone directly about all of this. was that because there was no one around or was it because im afraid of the possiblities of sharing something as important as this is with someone else?
Challenge #2--(directly related to challenge #1) find one person and share with them this quest and what it means to me. i must talk with this person in..um...person.(haha not intended) i will also write down my emotions, perceptions, and what was said(not for word of course).
geeze, good night.