the nadir.
jesi is queen of the healing conversation. sinking into oneness/nothingness is that bit less scary now. almost back to feeling ok about inhabiting a body, taking up time & space. still not sure how to hurl myself out of the nadir tho.
a day in solitude, without tv/internet/phone is a wonderful thing, tho challenging. discovering some real beauty on the other side of the wall. desperately wanting to connect, but i know it's just habit, &i know i'm too introspective to connect in any meaningful way.
me & Gal went to Wolfgang's 1st birthday party & it was a real novel experience. i am terrible with kids (& "adult" adults) but i came close to having a good conversation or two. i think. makes me want to settle down a bit (but don't tell anyone i said that, i'm still rock n roll i swearsit).
now the bits that you find banal but i find intriguing to no end:
all 4 cherry tomato plants have died suddenly & for no apparent reason, but the romanesco broccoli is sprouting at incredible speeds. this is my 2nd attempt at the unusual leafy thing, i hope they make it this time. gal dug up the carrot seedlings, but who can blame her.
planning on building a work desk for the imminent home office life i am about to lead.
that is all.
a day in solitude, without tv/internet/phone is a wonderful thing, tho challenging. discovering some real beauty on the other side of the wall. desperately wanting to connect, but i know it's just habit, &i know i'm too introspective to connect in any meaningful way.
me & Gal went to Wolfgang's 1st birthday party & it was a real novel experience. i am terrible with kids (& "adult" adults) but i came close to having a good conversation or two. i think. makes me want to settle down a bit (but don't tell anyone i said that, i'm still rock n roll i swearsit).
now the bits that you find banal but i find intriguing to no end:
all 4 cherry tomato plants have died suddenly & for no apparent reason, but the romanesco broccoli is sprouting at incredible speeds. this is my 2nd attempt at the unusual leafy thing, i hope they make it this time. gal dug up the carrot seedlings, but who can blame her.
planning on building a work desk for the imminent home office life i am about to lead.
that is all.