What was I supposed to say?
Well lets see. I'm takin a study break and felt like an update. There is so much to update yet its unmentionable (mainly for personal issues) at the same time. Since a week ago, my mindset has been totally different. It's like a switch just flipped. Socially...well I've just turned myself in a bit. I guess I'm tired of the whole what's everyone doing? What are we doing? Are we going here or there? Who's gonna be there? thing. I'm mentally unstable for many reasons I cant explain, and I'm suffering physically. I cant concentrate or get anything done. I'm always tired, and have been pretty bitchy.
Next point. Am I a bitch? I did a couple of things last week that would make you think I am. As selfish as you may think this sounds, I realized it's time to focus on me and get my own shit straightened out. Because of this, I eliminated some...particulary one thing that has taken a lot of my...i dunno time and brain activity? It was something that really meant a lot to me as was going very well, but like I said..a switch flipped. I feel...terrible, and at the same time, I cant/ dont want to change what I've done. It had to happen. I believe all is well, but pictures, memories, and flowers make me feel like breaking down. Actually I have a couple of times, but I cant let that happen anymore. It's done...no more. I'm sorry it ended up the way it did.
In other news, I am ditching the dorm life and moving in with Kristen over Christmas break. It was fun and I like it here. But, almost $3000 in grants that would go to living here, and the fact that I only sleep here made me think it is something I can do without. Sorry Erin, maybe they will give you a better roommate next semester. I am way excited about Kristen's. We are the best we've ever been friendship wise and we already know what we can and cant handle from eachother. We will also both be in school and working next semester so that pretty much eliminates the "tired of each other" factor.
Alright, time to get back to good ole Government 2301. I MUST do well on this test tomorrow. And I MUST make a badass speech about recycling tomorrow. Wish me luck...please?
Yours truly,
Dev
Next point. Am I a bitch? I did a couple of things last week that would make you think I am. As selfish as you may think this sounds, I realized it's time to focus on me and get my own shit straightened out. Because of this, I eliminated some...particulary one thing that has taken a lot of my...i dunno time and brain activity? It was something that really meant a lot to me as was going very well, but like I said..a switch flipped. I feel...terrible, and at the same time, I cant/ dont want to change what I've done. It had to happen. I believe all is well, but pictures, memories, and flowers make me feel like breaking down. Actually I have a couple of times, but I cant let that happen anymore. It's done...no more. I'm sorry it ended up the way it did.
In other news, I am ditching the dorm life and moving in with Kristen over Christmas break. It was fun and I like it here. But, almost $3000 in grants that would go to living here, and the fact that I only sleep here made me think it is something I can do without. Sorry Erin, maybe they will give you a better roommate next semester. I am way excited about Kristen's. We are the best we've ever been friendship wise and we already know what we can and cant handle from eachother. We will also both be in school and working next semester so that pretty much eliminates the "tired of each other" factor.
Alright, time to get back to good ole Government 2301. I MUST do well on this test tomorrow. And I MUST make a badass speech about recycling tomorrow. Wish me luck...please?
Yours truly,
Dev