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I seriously think I'm running out of steam. I dont know how much longer I can do the things I'm doing, the way I'm doing them. Maybe that sounds complicated, but when am I not complicated? From 8 o'clock classes every fuckin day, straight to work, hang out with friends, scramble to do homework and go to bed around 2 every night...it's takin a toll. I obviously dont take it easy on the weekends...I work long shifts then go out, and it's not surprising when I go to sleep around 4 or even 6.
That would explain why I keep gettin sick, and fall asleep in my classes. But school and work stress me out so much that I feel like I need to relax for a while. And, the best way for me to do that is to hang out with my friends. The majority of them arent in school this semester, so they dont necessarily have to worry about how long they stay out. And, I dont wanna be the odd man out and miss out. I havent had much of a voice for two days. Its pretty annoying.
Something else thats annoying is the fact that I havent had my truck for two fucking weeks. It had to get a new rack and pinion, new shocks, and new springs. They had to make it higher, and even though it doesnt look bad, I dont like it. So, it's pretty much finished as far as those three things go. BUT, as Kristen and I are going to go wash my papa's dodge that I've been driving, we see Ron (my step dad) at an intersection. I instantly know he's drunk, and tell him to come into a parking lot. I tried not to make a big deal...but before he ever started to work on it, I specifically asked him not to even mess with my truck unless he could commit to not driving drunk in it. Fuckin asshole... he always finds a way to hurt me like that. It's like deep down somewhere in him, I know he cares...about me, my family...shit anything. But, I can honestly say I've never seen it. I'm so frustrated lately. I just want...eh. I dont think anyone reads my long posts anyways. I'm takin a shower, doin homework and talking to Eric.
Be safe...and please dont fuckin drive drunk...and get help when you have a problem. If you dont, you could be hurting other people and never even know it.
That would explain why I keep gettin sick, and fall asleep in my classes. But school and work stress me out so much that I feel like I need to relax for a while. And, the best way for me to do that is to hang out with my friends. The majority of them arent in school this semester, so they dont necessarily have to worry about how long they stay out. And, I dont wanna be the odd man out and miss out. I havent had much of a voice for two days. Its pretty annoying.
Something else thats annoying is the fact that I havent had my truck for two fucking weeks. It had to get a new rack and pinion, new shocks, and new springs. They had to make it higher, and even though it doesnt look bad, I dont like it. So, it's pretty much finished as far as those three things go. BUT, as Kristen and I are going to go wash my papa's dodge that I've been driving, we see Ron (my step dad) at an intersection. I instantly know he's drunk, and tell him to come into a parking lot. I tried not to make a big deal...but before he ever started to work on it, I specifically asked him not to even mess with my truck unless he could commit to not driving drunk in it. Fuckin asshole... he always finds a way to hurt me like that. It's like deep down somewhere in him, I know he cares...about me, my family...shit anything. But, I can honestly say I've never seen it. I'm so frustrated lately. I just want...eh. I dont think anyone reads my long posts anyways. I'm takin a shower, doin homework and talking to Eric.
Be safe...and please dont fuckin drive drunk...and get help when you have a problem. If you dont, you could be hurting other people and never even know it.