To Whom it may concern over the years....sorry if I screwed up our friendship with being negative.
Negative, needy, annoying...whatever it was I am sorry. I was messed up and on too many medications or not enough...I didn't mean to make anyone mad and I blew it by not communicating well and I miss those I lost. I didn't know enough to BACK OFF and kept begging and it just made it worse! It was never ever intentional. I wasn't exactly mentally stable I guess or didn't handle the stress in life well. When someone says "give me space or time or back off" from now on I will. :P