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Wow..we talked like the old days. I seriously missed him and I'm just happy to have him back in my life. He came to me about stuff today, he needed and wanted my opinion, and it meant more to me than any of you will ever know. I told him the whole Scott story.. from where he left off. He definitely didn't approve of my stupidity throughout the whole relationship. /sigh.
I opened up to him yesterday about everything. I'm not sure why I did it. I guess it just comes so easily, and always has. Apparently he's moving to Edmonton when he's done school. Can you imagine? Wow. I haven't seen him in almost two years. Well two years in March. That's a crazy ass long time and I can't wait to see him again. Most important person. Well one of them. Ever.
Aaron has been stupid lately. I have no idea what's going on with him. He won't tell me anything either. That hurts. /Sigh. I don't want him to be stupid before I leave. I want us to have fun like we used to before I step onto the bus. I don't know what i'll do if we don't. I don't think he realizes how much this is bothering me. I wish he did. I wish he could see. I wish he'd make it better because I don't know how to fix it.
6 days until I leave. Which means a week until I arrive. I'm excited but at the same time heartbroken. I hate goodbyes, but I love hellos. I don't want to not see Tess for 3 months. I'm so used to seeing her basically every hour of every day and now I won't see her for a fourth of a year. /sigh. I can't to see my friends or family though.
I guess Lorri is in the hospital. She had an operation and got badly infected. She's in quarantine right now. She might have to have another surgery. I'm worried. Eileen is supposed to be updating my mom. /sigh.
I have so much to do before I go and no ambition to do any of it. I don't even want to go to work. I'm not going tomorrow but i'm going today and friday. Normally I would choose not going friday but it's payday and it's flu shot day so I must. /sigh. I wouldn't go today either but I haven't been to work since sunday so I'm thinking it would probably be a good idea to go, if I don't today, ill have to tomorrow. /sigh.
In the words of penguin..
Life is not my friend right now.
postscript;
I'm going to miss you so much, Tess. You don't even understand. I'll be counting down the days. And when I see you next I'll bruise you from leaping on you. Going from everyday to never is going to be hard. You are the most important person, and i'd die for you. You see that, right? Please don't let people that don't understand or see how our friendship really is, make you think that I hate you, and i'm bad news. I'd never do anything to deliberately hurt you. You mean everything to me. For life. Penguins are forever and ever. Right?