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So much is going through my mind and I am so exhausted.
My dad is in the hospital. He has been in ICU since Sunday. They are hoping to move himinto a step down unit tomorrow, but he has a long way to go. I really need to get back to work but I really do not want to leave my dad.
I am drained and so tired and I can't sleep. I spend the day keeping my mother calm and making sure she is positive. All I want to do is crawl into her lap and cry and I know that I need to be strong for her and it is just so tiring. And Jenny came back from her vacation in London today and I had to be all smiley and positive for her so she did not freak out. And when people ask how I am I just say fine because what else is there to say? I don't really have a choice. And I feel like I just can't talk to people. I go into the waiting room and I open my phone and I know that I can call people but I just can't. It's so weird. My brain refuses to process the ability to share the burden. So forgive me, but I'm doing it here, because I have no where else to do it.
My dad is in the hospital. He has been in ICU since Sunday. They are hoping to move himinto a step down unit tomorrow, but he has a long way to go. I really need to get back to work but I really do not want to leave my dad.
I am drained and so tired and I can't sleep. I spend the day keeping my mother calm and making sure she is positive. All I want to do is crawl into her lap and cry and I know that I need to be strong for her and it is just so tiring. And Jenny came back from her vacation in London today and I had to be all smiley and positive for her so she did not freak out. And when people ask how I am I just say fine because what else is there to say? I don't really have a choice. And I feel like I just can't talk to people. I go into the waiting room and I open my phone and I know that I can call people but I just can't. It's so weird. My brain refuses to process the ability to share the burden. So forgive me, but I'm doing it here, because I have no where else to do it.