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well today was alright, nothing exciting happened, except at lunch. it wasn't really exciting. just something that happened at lunch. it kinda ticked me off a bit. and you'll prolly think, this guys such a pussy, what an idiot. but ... yeah i don't care at all. so this is it, end of lunch kailey and matt tell me to skip with them, i say no, kailey doesn't except the fact that i don't want to skip. i don't think they realize that i'd get in SO much shit from my parents especially my dad, so if i dont' want to skip on account of me being afraid of getting in shit by my dad, then i'm not going to skip. but they just really don't except it. so they're all like, ah devon, you never skip, if you don't skip we're marking you down as absent. so i just say screw this and leave. i know it seems small but it just started to piss me off. so i'm in my english class and i see kailey westman and jessica outside my door and sure enough, they had changed my fucking attendance to absent. so they get ratted out by travis and so now...kailey may be getting suspended. oh but wait, didn't i say earlier that she shouldn't skip??? i think i did! and now she's all upset that she gettin suspended and punished and i care and all cuz she's prolly gonna get in lotsa crap but i told her she shouldn't. plus if i were to skip i'd be gettin in shit too so...wtf??!! so meh, now i won't be able to chill with her this weekend or prolly not for like a couple weeks. i'm pretty pissed about that but what can ya do?
on another note, i'm VERY confused about the whole "christian" stuff. like i believe in god and stuff but like, i'm sort of mad at god right now because of a number of things, but this week at my lg, we were talking about getting into heaven and stuff. and we were talking about what you should do so that you actually are a christian;basically defining what a christian is. but anywho yeah i was thinking and i've never really done any of the things we were talking about. like god has never spoken to me. i've never really been comitted or grown close to god. and honestly right now, it's like i don't have time for god, like i always have shit loads of homework, shit loads of stress at home, stress from this whole god thing, like holy fuck! it just gets me pissed and the more pissed i get the more i get angry at god, and i go to tuesday and sundays and stuff. i listen and don't get anything out of it. and if i ever talk to people about it i always get mixed responses and i just screws me up. so yeah i'm very confused right now and i don't know what to do. so yeah well i'm out,
taker easy
ps i love you kailey!!!!!!!!!!!!
on another note, i'm VERY confused about the whole "christian" stuff. like i believe in god and stuff but like, i'm sort of mad at god right now because of a number of things, but this week at my lg, we were talking about getting into heaven and stuff. and we were talking about what you should do so that you actually are a christian;basically defining what a christian is. but anywho yeah i was thinking and i've never really done any of the things we were talking about. like god has never spoken to me. i've never really been comitted or grown close to god. and honestly right now, it's like i don't have time for god, like i always have shit loads of homework, shit loads of stress at home, stress from this whole god thing, like holy fuck! it just gets me pissed and the more pissed i get the more i get angry at god, and i go to tuesday and sundays and stuff. i listen and don't get anything out of it. and if i ever talk to people about it i always get mixed responses and i just screws me up. so yeah i'm very confused right now and i don't know what to do. so yeah well i'm out,
taker easy
ps i love you kailey!!!!!!!!!!!!