i want a lover i don't have to love
it's 530. i haven't gone to bed yet. this is exactly the reason why i didn't want to move back to CT.
this house creeps me out when i'm alone. no, this house creeps me out in general. i do not like living alone. i dislike being alone on the whole. i want to be left alone, but with people around.
i'm not getting anything done. i'm playing video games, and watching tv. i've eaten alot of vegetables and a lot of ice cream. but not in conjunction with one another. i should unpack.
when i try and sleep in my bed, i feel like i'm upside down or i'm floating, i tried to pile on blankets to stop the feeling, but it only made me hot. so now i've taken to sleeping on the 25 year old love seat. i don't fit on it, so i have to hang my feet off. i sleep with most of the lights on and the television and a fan and a manatee named emanuel.
today i bought tomatoes in several varities, some apples and some oranges. i got baby carrots. it came to fifteen dollars and seven cents. it's all organic and the register girl liked my hat which was my dad and it says "skips", which is his nickname, as the hippie girl and i discussed. the beautiful boy still works at wild oats but i didn't go in his line, because he intimidates me.
my brother is disgusted with my obsession/desire to be adored. rather than be adored, i'd like some grass to lie in and a nice sunny spot. i want to nap.
i want a pet. i want a corgi. i want to name it percival.
or marry someone named percival.
neither of which i will ever call 'percy'.
this house creeps me out when i'm alone. no, this house creeps me out in general. i do not like living alone. i dislike being alone on the whole. i want to be left alone, but with people around.
i'm not getting anything done. i'm playing video games, and watching tv. i've eaten alot of vegetables and a lot of ice cream. but not in conjunction with one another. i should unpack.
when i try and sleep in my bed, i feel like i'm upside down or i'm floating, i tried to pile on blankets to stop the feeling, but it only made me hot. so now i've taken to sleeping on the 25 year old love seat. i don't fit on it, so i have to hang my feet off. i sleep with most of the lights on and the television and a fan and a manatee named emanuel.
today i bought tomatoes in several varities, some apples and some oranges. i got baby carrots. it came to fifteen dollars and seven cents. it's all organic and the register girl liked my hat which was my dad and it says "skips", which is his nickname, as the hippie girl and i discussed. the beautiful boy still works at wild oats but i didn't go in his line, because he intimidates me.
my brother is disgusted with my obsession/desire to be adored. rather than be adored, i'd like some grass to lie in and a nice sunny spot. i want to nap.
i want a pet. i want a corgi. i want to name it percival.
or marry someone named percival.
neither of which i will ever call 'percy'.