Entry from Colorado
Denver seems very nice. I have only really seen it from the highway though. I did not feel like going anywhere yesterday when I had time off, so I just slept. Today I fly home, and Hurricane Rita is going to be in our way, so the flight will probably be longer if they have to go around it. Either that, or it is going to be a very bumpy ride.
It is getting cold here in Colorado. It is very strange to me, and I find my self very depressed it. I think the last time I was in a cold, mountainous place was right after my ex and I separated. So my last memories of a environment were not good one, and I think my mind is just reacting to this because of that.
I know I also feel really bad about myself as well. I can not seem to make the lifestyle changes I need in order to lose my gut. I just do not feel feminine enough with such a large shape. This means keeping up the double life, until I can get these changes in place. The welbutrin is helping, but I have to make an effort myself or it is just a waste.
I can not wait to see Cody. I have not seen him in a week. I miss him SO much.
Time to stop crying and go wait at the airport for six hours.
It is getting cold here in Colorado. It is very strange to me, and I find my self very depressed it. I think the last time I was in a cold, mountainous place was right after my ex and I separated. So my last memories of a environment were not good one, and I think my mind is just reacting to this because of that.
I know I also feel really bad about myself as well. I can not seem to make the lifestyle changes I need in order to lose my gut. I just do not feel feminine enough with such a large shape. This means keeping up the double life, until I can get these changes in place. The welbutrin is helping, but I have to make an effort myself or it is just a waste.
I can not wait to see Cody. I have not seen him in a week. I miss him SO much.
Time to stop crying and go wait at the airport for six hours.