broken mirror

[devolver]

i want a broken mirror so i can see how you see me
it's 62 degrees and cold in this small room
my love for you is a disease i guess
so i'll cover it up with this towel
so you can't see the ugliness
i was happy before without this.
well, lethargic but not unhappy.
Because these hidden messages are too difficult to decode.
I miss the laughter
now it's replaced
with blank stares across the room
weird silences and questions unanswered
because you won't talk to me
i can't live for too long like this
suffocating under the pressure
he makes me think that it's all in my head
and everything is fine.
of course it is because i'm obeying your commands
but that does not a happy girlfriend make
loose ends and unsaid sentences
how will i say how i feel
if you dismiss my every feeling
telling me it's invalid?
You make me feel like i'm kicking a bees nest
and I should just leave everything alone
while you get away with
whipping me into shape
to be your perfect girlfriend
because of what somebody else did to you
well i'll tell you this
I won't serve their crimes
so treat me right
or let me go.