I can't stop thinking about you .... are you thinking of me, love?
Life is so cruel. It is so hard to be strong, especially when you know that you have to be strong, not only for yourself, but for the one you love. Sometimes I just want to run away ... to him. When I talk to him and hear his voice, sometimes I just let tears stream down my face, and he always knows. And he understands. He tells me to wipe them away because things will work out because he has me and I have him. But how can we really have each other when he is so far from me? I want to see him. Even thinking about being with him makes me want to overflow with happiness. But he has to work and I can't drvie, so while everyone is with their significant others on Friday, I'll be hanging out with my mom, thinking about Drew and wishing things were different. People always say that I am such a strong person, but I wish I didn't have to be strong. I wish that they could see that I don't want to be strong, that I just want to be with him. Things fade to shades of grey when we are apparent. It's like Alli said this morning, my body is in Michigan, my mind is in Alaska, ...... and my heart is in Indiana. I wish I wasn't scattered. I can't wait to be reunited with my mind and my heart next summer.
Come back to me my love.
How fitting ..... a song.
Stand in the Rain by Superchic[k]
She never slows down
She dosen't know why
But she knows that when she's all alone
It feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long
And she fears if she cries that first tear
The tears will not stop raining down
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when its all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day what's lost can be found
You stand in the rain
She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself
And the fear whispering
If she stands, she’ll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything
She's running from
Wants to give up and lie down