Yeah yeah...
Im sitting in a chat room on AOL. Not really saying anything, just observing... Man the world is full of stupid fucking people... I feel numbed by their stupidity. Numb like I feel when I take vicoden. And I asked a friend, "Is it wrong to hate these people because they are stupid?" She says no, but I dont know. I mean, I guess I should be more tolerant, but whats wrong with me wishing people to better themselves?
So whats going on in my life? Nothing really. Got a car, but still dont have a license. Job hunting and waiting for call backs. Other than that, sitting on my ass. Been playing a lot of EQ lately with Mandy. She makes playing EQ fun again. Before she came back into my life, I had burned myself out on EQ, but I like spending time with her in game.
Though it doesnt matter. My cable and EQ will prolly be cut by months end, cause im unemployed, but im working on it. Im sitting here bored, so I may work on an LJ icon. I created a new greatestjournal account last night, and started uploading some pics to it. You can see it at http://gjpix.com/darthnemo/
I also started doing some web design again. My web design kung-fu is still strong. Im collaborating with my friend Nick, who works for a company called Shadow Graphix. They do a lot of graphic design here in Indy for a bunch of race teams and what not. Well, when Nick and I get this site done for SG, Nick is gonna pitch the idea that SG should start doing web design as well. Hopefully this will get SG more business, and me a job.
Im tired. I shouldnt be. Im not tired due to exhertion, or lack of sleep. Im tired due to boredom. Ive done nothing today. Well, almost nothing. I did get the radio in my car working. (Damn loose wires.) I just want to get a job, and an income. Get my license fixed, and my life on track. Come January, im getting a check for $11k (1/3 of my trust fund), so the first thing im going to do is throw down rent for 1 year, that way I dont blow the money. So, this next year is going to be much kinder to me.
You know, at christmas time, my grandfather (whos rich) gives my dad, and my aunts and uncles a "bonus." They dont work for him (well, some do, most dont), but they still get a "bonus." A $20,000 "bonus." Now, I seem to be the black sheep of the family. The entire family looks down on me. Im the family fuck-up. My thought is, give me $20k a year! I can live comfortably for 2 years off that. Give me $20k a year, and ill stay away. Hell, I dont even have to show up for christmas, just mail it to me. Then you dont even have to acknowledge my existance. Ill stay out of the picture.
I still feel numb. I dont know what is wrong with me. But that seems to be the case in life. When I have to deal with other peoples problems, just call me Dr. Phi.... er Trevor. When it comes to my own, Im lost. I think everyone has that problem. If there are people out there that can diagnose themselves, and cure their own problems, I applaud them.
700 MP3s, and I dont want to listen to any of them. A man cant live on 700 MP3s. I need more. Many more. At least 4300 more. But thats not gonna happen. If you have a bunch of music, burn a cd of MP3s for me, and send it to me. Cause when I load up Kazaa, my mind goes blank. So make it easy on me, just donate CDs packed with music. I listen to just about anything. (Except country)
So whats going on in my life? Nothing really. Got a car, but still dont have a license. Job hunting and waiting for call backs. Other than that, sitting on my ass. Been playing a lot of EQ lately with Mandy. She makes playing EQ fun again. Before she came back into my life, I had burned myself out on EQ, but I like spending time with her in game.
Though it doesnt matter. My cable and EQ will prolly be cut by months end, cause im unemployed, but im working on it. Im sitting here bored, so I may work on an LJ icon. I created a new greatestjournal account last night, and started uploading some pics to it. You can see it at http://gjpix.com/darthnemo/
I also started doing some web design again. My web design kung-fu is still strong. Im collaborating with my friend Nick, who works for a company called Shadow Graphix. They do a lot of graphic design here in Indy for a bunch of race teams and what not. Well, when Nick and I get this site done for SG, Nick is gonna pitch the idea that SG should start doing web design as well. Hopefully this will get SG more business, and me a job.
Im tired. I shouldnt be. Im not tired due to exhertion, or lack of sleep. Im tired due to boredom. Ive done nothing today. Well, almost nothing. I did get the radio in my car working. (Damn loose wires.) I just want to get a job, and an income. Get my license fixed, and my life on track. Come January, im getting a check for $11k (1/3 of my trust fund), so the first thing im going to do is throw down rent for 1 year, that way I dont blow the money. So, this next year is going to be much kinder to me.
You know, at christmas time, my grandfather (whos rich) gives my dad, and my aunts and uncles a "bonus." They dont work for him (well, some do, most dont), but they still get a "bonus." A $20,000 "bonus." Now, I seem to be the black sheep of the family. The entire family looks down on me. Im the family fuck-up. My thought is, give me $20k a year! I can live comfortably for 2 years off that. Give me $20k a year, and ill stay away. Hell, I dont even have to show up for christmas, just mail it to me. Then you dont even have to acknowledge my existance. Ill stay out of the picture.
I still feel numb. I dont know what is wrong with me. But that seems to be the case in life. When I have to deal with other peoples problems, just call me Dr. Phi.... er Trevor. When it comes to my own, Im lost. I think everyone has that problem. If there are people out there that can diagnose themselves, and cure their own problems, I applaud them.
700 MP3s, and I dont want to listen to any of them. A man cant live on 700 MP3s. I need more. Many more. At least 4300 more. But thats not gonna happen. If you have a bunch of music, burn a cd of MP3s for me, and send it to me. Cause when I load up Kazaa, my mind goes blank. So make it easy on me, just donate CDs packed with music. I listen to just about anything. (Except country)