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I havent written in this thing in forever.. SO much has happen since I've written last.... Where to start.. hm.. let me see, I didnt get my diploma from school. I got my credits pulled for missing to much. (or skipping, is the more fit term I suppose.) Amyways, I now have a Successful job. I ship frozen product around the US. Its pretty important I guess.. Lets see, other than that... Im still with my girlfriend that i've been with forever. Sometimes I wonder if she really likes me, or if she is just with me to feel more secure. I dont know...
Drugs arent as major in my life now, but they're still there. Not all the time, just off and on depending on how Im feeling. Right now, Im feeling pretty wierd. Not from drugs though. I havent had any for quite some time. I think its more of an emotional inbalance or some sort of disease made up by some genius that works for the government. Just another thought. Thats all anything really is.. But, about the drugs, I feel i've lost that extra topping in my character and personality. I dont feel that I think as much on certain topics. I feel less secure, but at the same time, more open to different understandings. If I do them, Im not happy with myself, or God. If I dont do them, I feel different. Not myself I guess. Im not sure here what is the right answer....
Lets see.... My great Aunt died. She was great. She was the one person I knew that had a death experience. She died in the hospital from food poisoning. The nurse said she was dead for a few minutes. I remember her telling me it was amazing. She said something like, "there was a great light, full of wonderful emotions" the only way she could properly explain it to me was that everything in the world, every wonderful emotion ever felt, was right there. Could be felt. At her funeral, I didnt cry. She told me she was mad when she woke up in that hospital bed. I believe her....
I feel my relationship with God is increasing day by day. I know, if not he, someone is watching over me. I was pulled over by someone the other day that I had flipped off in traffic.(You might be asking yourself, why did i stop?) He held up a bullet proof vest, that said POLICE written accross it. My manager stoped while i was talking to this crazed num-skull. I was arguing with him over almost nothing. The man then left. I got his tag number, and he wasnt a cop at all... So, Im pressing charges. I really think someone put my manager back there to witness this inncodent to save me. You know, like a guardian angel. I've had much closer calls, in the past, but at the time didnt reconize what was keeping me safe. I do now...
Im staying up late tonight. Of course not by choice. My mom took my sister to the hospital for some pain she has had in her arm and chest all day. Hopefully she is ok. Im having to watch my little brother, tomorrow shall be another long day for me...
Drugs arent as major in my life now, but they're still there. Not all the time, just off and on depending on how Im feeling. Right now, Im feeling pretty wierd. Not from drugs though. I havent had any for quite some time. I think its more of an emotional inbalance or some sort of disease made up by some genius that works for the government. Just another thought. Thats all anything really is.. But, about the drugs, I feel i've lost that extra topping in my character and personality. I dont feel that I think as much on certain topics. I feel less secure, but at the same time, more open to different understandings. If I do them, Im not happy with myself, or God. If I dont do them, I feel different. Not myself I guess. Im not sure here what is the right answer....
Lets see.... My great Aunt died. She was great. She was the one person I knew that had a death experience. She died in the hospital from food poisoning. The nurse said she was dead for a few minutes. I remember her telling me it was amazing. She said something like, "there was a great light, full of wonderful emotions" the only way she could properly explain it to me was that everything in the world, every wonderful emotion ever felt, was right there. Could be felt. At her funeral, I didnt cry. She told me she was mad when she woke up in that hospital bed. I believe her....
I feel my relationship with God is increasing day by day. I know, if not he, someone is watching over me. I was pulled over by someone the other day that I had flipped off in traffic.(You might be asking yourself, why did i stop?) He held up a bullet proof vest, that said POLICE written accross it. My manager stoped while i was talking to this crazed num-skull. I was arguing with him over almost nothing. The man then left. I got his tag number, and he wasnt a cop at all... So, Im pressing charges. I really think someone put my manager back there to witness this inncodent to save me. You know, like a guardian angel. I've had much closer calls, in the past, but at the time didnt reconize what was keeping me safe. I do now...
Im staying up late tonight. Of course not by choice. My mom took my sister to the hospital for some pain she has had in her arm and chest all day. Hopefully she is ok. Im having to watch my little brother, tomorrow shall be another long day for me...