California path
It’s been a while since I wrote on here, I know I’ve been bad about it, it’s just that life has taken over, well more like work has taken over my every waken moment lol. The reason why I’m writing is because I received an email from Futureme.org and I sent it on Feb 4th 2008, it made me think of where I was last year compare to where I am today.
The gist of it was - that I was in love with Charlotte and I hope that I worked things out with her, because I knew longevity in my relationship side was never more than three months, that things with her would be better and that her and I would give it a good try. Also if I have a new job, did my old boss help me with my resume and I’m better in my debt department. As well as if my granny was still around and so many other worries that were in my mind at that time, i.e. asshole. Overall I wanted to know if I was okay.
Well Past Me, Charlotte broke up with me, she was the worse break up that I’ve ever had, completely tore me to shreds and I ended up in a whirlwind of different women in my life. I had the best time with different women, don’t get me wrong, but there was something missing, it was my heart. I loved a couple, that really influenced me into being better and wanting what I deserved, I found out that I could be alone and could be a good part of a relationship. Now, I find myself completely happy with Meghan in my life as more than just a close friend. She has been my confidant and my rock for over three years, knows everything about me and accepts me for who I am without prejudice or distrust, she knows who I am and what I stand for, and she loves me for it. I haven’t felt this unconditional love in my life, only from my friends and family members. I’ve been blessed to have the opportunity to love her the way she loves me and I haven’t even met her. Yes I know, how can you know you’re in love with her when you haven’t even met her, you know don’t the chemistry how it’s going to be like, etc etc etc. I hear Tina right now going, oh G-D Scamp, not again! I’m not going to plead my case before the court, I’m the hopeless romantic, what can I say, but she gives me hope when I felt lost and dishearten, in my heart, it’s always been her, just too afraid to admit it since she lives in California. I’m going to meet her in less than seven days, it’s been a countdown and every day that passes feels like I’m on my way to my future. My thoughts are more congregant and steady in my stream of consciousness, there are obstacles in hand and I have seen them for what they are worth.
The gist of it was - that I was in love with Charlotte and I hope that I worked things out with her, because I knew longevity in my relationship side was never more than three months, that things with her would be better and that her and I would give it a good try. Also if I have a new job, did my old boss help me with my resume and I’m better in my debt department. As well as if my granny was still around and so many other worries that were in my mind at that time, i.e. asshole. Overall I wanted to know if I was okay.
Well Past Me, Charlotte broke up with me, she was the worse break up that I’ve ever had, completely tore me to shreds and I ended up in a whirlwind of different women in my life. I had the best time with different women, don’t get me wrong, but there was something missing, it was my heart. I loved a couple, that really influenced me into being better and wanting what I deserved, I found out that I could be alone and could be a good part of a relationship. Now, I find myself completely happy with Meghan in my life as more than just a close friend. She has been my confidant and my rock for over three years, knows everything about me and accepts me for who I am without prejudice or distrust, she knows who I am and what I stand for, and she loves me for it. I haven’t felt this unconditional love in my life, only from my friends and family members. I’ve been blessed to have the opportunity to love her the way she loves me and I haven’t even met her. Yes I know, how can you know you’re in love with her when you haven’t even met her, you know don’t the chemistry how it’s going to be like, etc etc etc. I hear Tina right now going, oh G-D Scamp, not again! I’m not going to plead my case before the court, I’m the hopeless romantic, what can I say, but she gives me hope when I felt lost and dishearten, in my heart, it’s always been her, just too afraid to admit it since she lives in California. I’m going to meet her in less than seven days, it’s been a countdown and every day that passes feels like I’m on my way to my future. My thoughts are more congregant and steady in my stream of consciousness, there are obstacles in hand and I have seen them for what they are worth.