A true workacholic
Where do you spend a lovely Sunday? Usually out enjoying it with friends or family, or maybe just sitting outside a borders cafe reading a good book and enjoying the slight breeze of the ocean. Nope, not moi... I'm behind a computer screen with clients on the line, teaching them how to use our software to better perform their trades or troubleshooting their obvious self made mistakes that they believe it was manufacture by faulty programming. I woke up this morning, tired but happy, feeling satisfied with my current situation. I've alienated most of my friends, been keeping to myself not going out, it's not that I feel alone, on the contrary, I feel content and fulfilled. I have realized a couple of things this year, one of them being Life will always give you what you need not what you want. I never knew how profound this sentence was until recently and I feel grateful for knowing it. I have found peace within my heart which is one of the greatest battles I've faced recently, the turmoil that I face every day was getting overwhelming and I just couldn't bear the burden anymore. I had to find a way to making peace with my demons and knowing when to cut losses before I lost more than it was worth it. I cut out the cancers from my life, well more like they just vanished on their own behave, it was situations, people and thoughts that pestered my life. Some return but now far from me but still affecting my family, i.e. the cancer called Roberto came back from Argentina to plague my mother's life. I cannot get emotionally involved again so I am cutting myself from my mom as much as it hurts me. How can my mom fall prey to the abuse again? She's so smart, beautiful, caring, independent and brilliant be such an idiot when it comes to his manipulations? I guess it runs in the family because I was an idiot with certain things, especially when it came to love and loving unconditionally, now I have found a way of letting people go that are beyond my help, where in fact the first thing I should have noticed that they didn't need my help.
This is why I dedicate myself completely in what I’m doing and giving it all of my energy. The longest relationships I’ve had throughout my years have been with my work, I’ve had many successes and failures but always learning from each experience making me a better asset in my work place. Who needs love when I can climb the ladder of success?? LOL .. I know, actually there is a special person in my life, we are taking it slow, I mean .. it’s taken us three years to realize that there’s more than meets the eye. Other than that, work is my first lady until further notice ;)
This is why I dedicate myself completely in what I’m doing and giving it all of my energy. The longest relationships I’ve had throughout my years have been with my work, I’ve had many successes and failures but always learning from each experience making me a better asset in my work place. Who needs love when I can climb the ladder of success?? LOL .. I know, actually there is a special person in my life, we are taking it slow, I mean .. it’s taken us three years to realize that there’s more than meets the eye. Other than that, work is my first lady until further notice ;)