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It's been so long since I've updated and I'm sorry. So much has happened this weekend. It was driving me crazy.
First of all. Mom announced that I had to babysit on Friday night when I had plans with Diana (again, I'm sorry) and that made me extremly angry. So when she wasn't around I threw the biggest fit, screaming at the top of my lungs, hitting the wall and yelling fuck on every step upstairs. Turns out that she walked right in when I started to yell fuck. I said "You weren't meant to hear that, I was just venting so turn around and go about your buisness please." She gave me the dirtiest look I have ever seen but I felt better after a while. She ended up telling dad and I was punished for venting. I was punished for letting my anger out (screaming, stomping hitting). I was punished.
BTW lotsa things have been reminding me of Veronika today. Like everywhere I looked I could see her re-acting out of our inside jokes. I miss her. Poor Veronika. Thank you for the valentine by the way! I'm keeping it forever. Since I thought about her all day, I decided to do the "clap clap two arm double piont towards the sky" thing at the basketball game.
I had fun at the basketball game. I like hanging out with Amy Cline. You are so nice Amy. You're a good good friend.
Also this weekend we had to put my dear soxie to sleep. Our family cat that we have had for four years and has grown on us so much had to be put to sleep. Can you beleive that? It was really sad. Apparently he stepped in Antifreeze and licked his paws which caused him to slowly go mad while the toxins were eating away at his insides. When we were in the room with our cat it didn't even look like him so it didn't feel like I was losing a longtime buddy is just felt like I was losing a close friend which lightened things up alot. Otherwise I would have been a mess right? Right. We are looking for a new cat now, NOT to replace him, or betray him because nobody could ever replace that little guy, but because we need something to hold and pet. We need something to snuggle with to help us through and since my cat Jaymie is skitzofrenic (which is fine by me) we can't hold her like we held sox. So we've been looking for a new kitty. There is this one cat names Snowball (lame name I know) that I plan on calling Spiderman because the little boy likes to climb on the cage and hold on to the cage walls. It's adoreable.
Moving on.
I am really really dissapointed about this upcoming dreamatic ending for the cheerleading season. Well, it won't have anything special like an ending dance or moonwalk jiggs but I know the seniors this year and I think it will actually be really sad to have them leave me. I have bonded with them so much these past few months. I mean, the first few months were so hard. There was noone for me to hang out with or even talk to seeing as I was the only sophmore on varsity but they did their best to accompany me. And now that I have grown to appriciate them I realized that I am going to miss them terribly. So heres to you seniors of 05, you guys really are the greatest and I love you all. Live good lives? Or maybe uh, party in college? Have fun with yourselves? I don't know. "Stay the same because you rock that way." works for now.
First of all. Mom announced that I had to babysit on Friday night when I had plans with Diana (again, I'm sorry) and that made me extremly angry. So when she wasn't around I threw the biggest fit, screaming at the top of my lungs, hitting the wall and yelling fuck on every step upstairs. Turns out that she walked right in when I started to yell fuck. I said "You weren't meant to hear that, I was just venting so turn around and go about your buisness please." She gave me the dirtiest look I have ever seen but I felt better after a while. She ended up telling dad and I was punished for venting. I was punished for letting my anger out (screaming, stomping hitting). I was punished.
BTW lotsa things have been reminding me of Veronika today. Like everywhere I looked I could see her re-acting out of our inside jokes. I miss her. Poor Veronika. Thank you for the valentine by the way! I'm keeping it forever. Since I thought about her all day, I decided to do the "clap clap two arm double piont towards the sky" thing at the basketball game.
I had fun at the basketball game. I like hanging out with Amy Cline. You are so nice Amy. You're a good good friend.
Also this weekend we had to put my dear soxie to sleep. Our family cat that we have had for four years and has grown on us so much had to be put to sleep. Can you beleive that? It was really sad. Apparently he stepped in Antifreeze and licked his paws which caused him to slowly go mad while the toxins were eating away at his insides. When we were in the room with our cat it didn't even look like him so it didn't feel like I was losing a longtime buddy is just felt like I was losing a close friend which lightened things up alot. Otherwise I would have been a mess right? Right. We are looking for a new cat now, NOT to replace him, or betray him because nobody could ever replace that little guy, but because we need something to hold and pet. We need something to snuggle with to help us through and since my cat Jaymie is skitzofrenic (which is fine by me) we can't hold her like we held sox. So we've been looking for a new kitty. There is this one cat names Snowball (lame name I know) that I plan on calling Spiderman because the little boy likes to climb on the cage and hold on to the cage walls. It's adoreable.
Moving on.
I am really really dissapointed about this upcoming dreamatic ending for the cheerleading season. Well, it won't have anything special like an ending dance or moonwalk jiggs but I know the seniors this year and I think it will actually be really sad to have them leave me. I have bonded with them so much these past few months. I mean, the first few months were so hard. There was noone for me to hang out with or even talk to seeing as I was the only sophmore on varsity but they did their best to accompany me. And now that I have grown to appriciate them I realized that I am going to miss them terribly. So heres to you seniors of 05, you guys really are the greatest and I love you all. Live good lives? Or maybe uh, party in college? Have fun with yourselves? I don't know. "Stay the same because you rock that way." works for now.