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I dont know what to say today. I just dont feel happy. Not that I am unhappy, its just one of those moods that you get into where you just seem tired of yourself and everything around you. I guess I'm just worried about Sydney. She hurt her knee during basketball. I blame myself mostly. It happened during a pass. I passed it to her and my friend accidentally ran into her while trying to get the ball. I just feel responsible for it. She keeps telling me its not my fault but it really is.
So I spent the day taking care of her. It was kind of nice to be able to take care of her for a change because she takes care of me, even if I tell her not to. I have become increasingly tired these passed few days. I sleep the same amount but it seems to be worse sleep. I cant stop having dreams. These dreams are my thoughts acted out in my head. I feel like a few of my friends are avoiding me. They know who they are. Nothing has changed between me and them in the past few weeks when they were still talking to me. So I dont get it. But whatever. I'm just going to go on with life. What else can I do?
So I spent the day taking care of her. It was kind of nice to be able to take care of her for a change because she takes care of me, even if I tell her not to. I have become increasingly tired these passed few days. I sleep the same amount but it seems to be worse sleep. I cant stop having dreams. These dreams are my thoughts acted out in my head. I feel like a few of my friends are avoiding me. They know who they are. Nothing has changed between me and them in the past few weeks when they were still talking to me. So I dont get it. But whatever. I'm just going to go on with life. What else can I do?