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I think Im going to CA to live.Maia I love you so much baby but the decision that you are going to have to make could be one of the hardest in your life. I have never been in that kinda of situation and dont want to. I just want you to be happy and do whats best for you. If that means never talkin to me again I guess Im gonna have to deal with it. I dont like the idea but if it really comes to that then I guess that I have to let you go. If it does then Im seriously done with everything. Im just gonna do nothing with myself. Ill fucking be a bum or fuck up and go to jail. Why dose life have to be so confusing. This just makes it even worse. This decision is probably gonna be one of the most difficult ever. Its gonna hurt me either way, because no matter what your not gonna be happy. So I guess you live and you learn. I hope the choice you make benifits you the most. I care about you SO FUCKIN MUCH! I want whats best for you. I want you to be happy, ALWAYS! I hate seeing you upset and unhappy. Just make the best choice ok?