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ugh. so this has always been frustrating. I've got two sides of the family, moms side and dads side, of course in the past 6 years Ive seen moms side alot more. Seeing as through my dads gone and gran, and she was kinda the glue. But before, and growing up I was always closer to my dads side, and now we just rarely see them. Every time we come down to LA my mom makes a point to see almost all her family and I have to make the effort to see my dads side. Its just frustrating that my mom doesn't really include her self in that half, or try to see them. And it puts a lot of pressure on me to be the sole one trying to make my own plans. But ya know, its not really her family. and I suppose if my mom and dad did just get a divorce, as was the plan, she wouldn't go and hang out with his side of the family. So I get it. But I am still tied to them, and I need to see them.
ugh.
and its frustrating trying to hang out and get to know a half brother when the only link between he and I is gone.
Its just that I am always the one trying to make a connection and calling and trying to coordinate.
Ive been updating a lot.