The trouble with the past
is that it often intersects with the present.
I recently found out from a friend of mine the truth of an incident that occurred about four years ago, a few months before I joined the Marine Corps. I will not go into details here. It's pretty fucked up when you think about it. Not the incident itself, but the apparent motivation behind it and everything that happened afterward. Not to mention the fact that a lot of my "friends" knew about it back home and weren't disgusted by the whole affair. Or that I've been completely oblivious these last four years. I feel like a fool. Stupid for trusting too much in people, stupid for missing the signs, just plain stupid for continuing along like nothing ever happened, even though I have a few vague snippets but no idea of the magnitude and scope of the situation.
The worst part is that instead of being angry, right now I feel absolutely nothing. I need time to think on how I'm going to handle this situation. But this is the first step. I should be pissed. Who knows...maybe after I've thought about it some more, I might be. But I shall still take care and deliberation in handling it.
I recently found out from a friend of mine the truth of an incident that occurred about four years ago, a few months before I joined the Marine Corps. I will not go into details here. It's pretty fucked up when you think about it. Not the incident itself, but the apparent motivation behind it and everything that happened afterward. Not to mention the fact that a lot of my "friends" knew about it back home and weren't disgusted by the whole affair. Or that I've been completely oblivious these last four years. I feel like a fool. Stupid for trusting too much in people, stupid for missing the signs, just plain stupid for continuing along like nothing ever happened, even though I have a few vague snippets but no idea of the magnitude and scope of the situation.
The worst part is that instead of being angry, right now I feel absolutely nothing. I need time to think on how I'm going to handle this situation. But this is the first step. I should be pissed. Who knows...maybe after I've thought about it some more, I might be. But I shall still take care and deliberation in handling it.