this is me, take it or leave it
Nobody loves me
Nobody cares
why does my life have to suck? well, the life doesn't suck so much....it's more the people i know. some are just a bunch of assholes, others just don't understand all the stress and frustration i go thru everyday. so here's an explanation of who i think i am...for those who care anyway.
i'm quiet for a reason, i act like i do cuz that's just me. i try to fit in, it usually fails. i had a 5 year relationship end quite abruptly, it has left me feeling lost and confused. unaware of what to do with my life, of how to go forward. i thought we were meant to be, apparently i thought wrong. i'm a dreamer, i have weird daydreams that usually involve some guy i saw previously. i'm highly aware of my surroundings, i hear things other people don't. i have this weird, almost freakish sense of balance...but it's only in body, not in spirit. i can be graceful, but i haven't found a use for it. i know random bits of information that everyone finds odd whenever one of them jumps out of my mouth. i'm actually really smart, just not highly motivated. i see all these skinny, fit and muscular girls all around me and i always wish i was one of them. i wanna be able to wear a midriff bearing shirt and not look like an idiot. or be able to find jeans that actually fit my odd shape(thank you, genetics). i'm very affectionate, if i can just cuddle with one of my guy friends while talking in a group of other friends or even while just talking to that guy friend, i'd be a happy clam. i complain, i bitch and moan, i'm a girl. but i don't wear makeup, i hate shopping, being around a bunch of gossiping giggling girls is not my idea of a fun time. i'm a lover, not a fighter. my bark is bigger than my bite. i've never been in a real fight, but i do know how to defend myself.
i have been told my work is good, i'm progressing at the rate i should be. but i heard in that voice 'but you could be progressing at a higher level'. i try to exceed expectations but i fail mostly. i was told not to submit myself to the 'stupid group'. and i won't. i am a conformist, true, but there are things i refuse to do in order to fit in. i don't smoke, i rarely drink, i don't party or anything 'fun' like that. i am responsible, loyal and able. i have a job, i learn fast. there are things in life that i can't wrap my brain around no matter how hard i try. i have to be told things in plain english or otherwise i'm confused and have to ask questions to simplify it.
so that's mostly me in a nutshell. it's not glamorous or cool or anything close. but it's who i am. for real. and if you can't handle that, then i'm sorry but it's not my problem anymore.
Nobody cares
why does my life have to suck? well, the life doesn't suck so much....it's more the people i know. some are just a bunch of assholes, others just don't understand all the stress and frustration i go thru everyday. so here's an explanation of who i think i am...for those who care anyway.
i'm quiet for a reason, i act like i do cuz that's just me. i try to fit in, it usually fails. i had a 5 year relationship end quite abruptly, it has left me feeling lost and confused. unaware of what to do with my life, of how to go forward. i thought we were meant to be, apparently i thought wrong. i'm a dreamer, i have weird daydreams that usually involve some guy i saw previously. i'm highly aware of my surroundings, i hear things other people don't. i have this weird, almost freakish sense of balance...but it's only in body, not in spirit. i can be graceful, but i haven't found a use for it. i know random bits of information that everyone finds odd whenever one of them jumps out of my mouth. i'm actually really smart, just not highly motivated. i see all these skinny, fit and muscular girls all around me and i always wish i was one of them. i wanna be able to wear a midriff bearing shirt and not look like an idiot. or be able to find jeans that actually fit my odd shape(thank you, genetics). i'm very affectionate, if i can just cuddle with one of my guy friends while talking in a group of other friends or even while just talking to that guy friend, i'd be a happy clam. i complain, i bitch and moan, i'm a girl. but i don't wear makeup, i hate shopping, being around a bunch of gossiping giggling girls is not my idea of a fun time. i'm a lover, not a fighter. my bark is bigger than my bite. i've never been in a real fight, but i do know how to defend myself.
i have been told my work is good, i'm progressing at the rate i should be. but i heard in that voice 'but you could be progressing at a higher level'. i try to exceed expectations but i fail mostly. i was told not to submit myself to the 'stupid group'. and i won't. i am a conformist, true, but there are things i refuse to do in order to fit in. i don't smoke, i rarely drink, i don't party or anything 'fun' like that. i am responsible, loyal and able. i have a job, i learn fast. there are things in life that i can't wrap my brain around no matter how hard i try. i have to be told things in plain english or otherwise i'm confused and have to ask questions to simplify it.
so that's mostly me in a nutshell. it's not glamorous or cool or anything close. but it's who i am. for real. and if you can't handle that, then i'm sorry but it's not my problem anymore.