Life is but a dream..
Well the time I’ve been dreading has finally arrived. Late Wed night my Mom was rushed to Alta View hospital from her nursing home on 90th and State, on the way she went into a coma as a result from an ultra-severe stroke. At the hospital she was diagnosed by the doctor and put on life support. At around 6am Wed, I got the call from my uncle that she would not survive. The seriousness of the stroke in combination with all the other stuff that happened left her system unable to handle the strain. If she was able to pull out of it she would be on life support and have to live with permanent irreversible brain damage. So in a brief family meeting, we all decided that it’s best to let her go. So it’s just a matter of time now, my Uncle Phil, who has power of attorney, will be in town today and give the authorization needed.
In the end I don’t quite know how to respond to all this. On my visit Tuesday, she was conscious, awake and responsive. All in all she looked like she was recovering well, but she was in an extreme amount of pain. I keep telling myself that she is in a better place now, but that gloomy feeling keeps nagging at me.
So in the time between family meetings this weekend, anybody want to get out? I need to do something and get out of this dark mood I’m in.
With all the people passing away in the past few years, I’ve been thinking of all the wasted things I’ve don’t with my life and pondering things I never thought seriously about before. Do I want to get married, have children, remain single, my job, future plans and mostly my health. It’s interesting how things like this can affect you. I never thought before that my Mom will never see her grandchildren, that is if I ever have kids. All in all my mind is full of regrets, I never thought this would affect me this way.
Oh well, I’ll just have to deal with it my own way....
.....and life goes on
In the end I don’t quite know how to respond to all this. On my visit Tuesday, she was conscious, awake and responsive. All in all she looked like she was recovering well, but she was in an extreme amount of pain. I keep telling myself that she is in a better place now, but that gloomy feeling keeps nagging at me.
So in the time between family meetings this weekend, anybody want to get out? I need to do something and get out of this dark mood I’m in.
With all the people passing away in the past few years, I’ve been thinking of all the wasted things I’ve don’t with my life and pondering things I never thought seriously about before. Do I want to get married, have children, remain single, my job, future plans and mostly my health. It’s interesting how things like this can affect you. I never thought before that my Mom will never see her grandchildren, that is if I ever have kids. All in all my mind is full of regrets, I never thought this would affect me this way.
Oh well, I’ll just have to deal with it my own way....
.....and life goes on