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So basically for someone that has no hopes and idea's for the future is doing pretty good a.k.a me .... but anyway ... just sitting here updating and listening to the dresden dolls "girl anachronism" ... it's pretty much my fav. song when I feel like being stupid : P.
Another note ... pretty much quit being Captain of the musical ... and here is my reason. I was trying to memorize the lines with my mom for at least two hours a day since we got out for christmas break and one night when we were running the scene that we'd been working on for the last two weeks, she just spoke up and asked me why I was doing this if I wasn't enjoying it and I really and honestly couldn't think of an answer to give her. So I wrote up a pretty professional letter to send to Ms. Hung (which sounded really good, I was impressed) stating that I just wasn't into the character and couldn't do anything and that it would be better for the cast and everyone working the show if they would just find another Captain. She's pretty much going to hate me ... which alowed me to realize another thing during this break. I am a bonified people pleaser. I do and say everything that will genually please others ... even though it may not lead to my happy-ness. At least the other person would be happy. I don't like to live my life like that so I decided to do something that would benifit me for a change and this was my decision. I didn't like being Captain, I obviously wasn't learning the lines, and I didn't have an iota of a clue of who or what my character acted like.
So in short ... I'm probably not going to be in the musical anymore ... which saddens me a little but in the long run I'm okay with it. I know musical theatre is my life and that's what I want to do ... it's just "The Sound of Music" is a really extremely boring musical ... well to me at least. Really the only thing that kept me coming back was the "Waltz" dance, and now that I'm not going to be Captain and they already have a replacement for Baron Elberfeld, I can't go back. What ev. I'm over it.
«Ps» No one know's of my quitting ... except for ms. hung and now everyone on livejournal.
«Ps²» I emailed ms. hung like three days ago ... either she's on vacation or she's just not answering my emails .... meh ...