Bipolar
Well, I've decided I am bipolar. Rather, I didn't, my other self did. There are atleast two versions of me, really. There's Brad the nice guy, whos athletic, friendly and just a nice sweet person...don't laugh. I'm very easy-going and active and I have a lot of friends and I love just hanging out and doing nothing. I accept other people's opinions and beliefs. I'm just a great guy who everyone can like. But... then there is the other me. The asshole who hates God, hates his family, hates school, hates people, and wants everyone and everything to die. He'll pick you up by your throat and throw you against a wall if you look at him wrong. I can't control either side really. At times, when talking about music or something I'd say 'Everyone likes something different, and that's great. I just don't like certain things.' But later I'd be asked the same question and answer by saying something like 'Everything sucks except metal and some rock. Rap sucks, pop sucks, punk sucks, hardcore sucks, etc.' And the thing is it's not just moods, it's extremes. I swear I drank some Jeckll/Hyde potion when I was young. I think there is a middle though. A lot when I'm not thinking about anything I'm just in the middle. I think I'm more quiet then cuz I uauslly don't want to piss people off or something, and at the same time I don't even know...
Moving on, I need to figure some stuff out. So much to figure out... One should I buy a car or a new drumset? I need a car....but I need an 8 piece Ludwig drumset. Other stuff: am I to go to college or move to Europe? W/e, I have time for that later. Other shit is just like girls. O girls, what to do. Why are you all so fucking confusing?? All of you. Every single one.
Well, some news for Duress. We've finished the music for what is temporarily called song 5. James and I decided to put blast beats in the beginning and end, and they sound pretty cool. It's probably gonna be the only song with blast beats, they don't really fit too well with the other material so that's why we were questioning whether or not to have them. I'm gonna work on lyrics with Dustin pretty soon. Just a little while ago Dustin and I finished lyrics for song 4 (deciding title now). We've been working really really hard one these, cuz this is our 'hit song' we believe. So here are the lyrics, tell me what you think (maybe you could think of a good title, cuz at this point in time me and dustin can't):
And her voice echoes on
As the rain falls softly from above
Landing on her grave
Tears from the heavens for my lost love
The skies grew gray for her
The day she slept eternally
And now I search for salvation
From a life of misery
Tormented since she died
Sleepless nights alone I've spent
Wandering through darkened woods
Crying out for this longing to relent
A hymn, the forest sings for her
The wind through the trees
A tale of darker endings
Upon a soft autumn breeze
Enshrouded with darkness
Death from a black disease
I was left with no one
And with no one I shall be
Moving on, I need to figure some stuff out. So much to figure out... One should I buy a car or a new drumset? I need a car....but I need an 8 piece Ludwig drumset. Other stuff: am I to go to college or move to Europe? W/e, I have time for that later. Other shit is just like girls. O girls, what to do. Why are you all so fucking confusing?? All of you. Every single one.
Well, some news for Duress. We've finished the music for what is temporarily called song 5. James and I decided to put blast beats in the beginning and end, and they sound pretty cool. It's probably gonna be the only song with blast beats, they don't really fit too well with the other material so that's why we were questioning whether or not to have them. I'm gonna work on lyrics with Dustin pretty soon. Just a little while ago Dustin and I finished lyrics for song 4 (deciding title now). We've been working really really hard one these, cuz this is our 'hit song' we believe. So here are the lyrics, tell me what you think (maybe you could think of a good title, cuz at this point in time me and dustin can't):
And her voice echoes on
As the rain falls softly from above
Landing on her grave
Tears from the heavens for my lost love
The skies grew gray for her
The day she slept eternally
And now I search for salvation
From a life of misery
Tormented since she died
Sleepless nights alone I've spent
Wandering through darkened woods
Crying out for this longing to relent
A hymn, the forest sings for her
The wind through the trees
A tale of darker endings
Upon a soft autumn breeze
Enshrouded with darkness
Death from a black disease
I was left with no one
And with no one I shall be