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my whole life is bullshit. i thought brian of all people would be understanding about what happend at work. but it turns out he wasn't. that really REALLY hurt. i know i shouldn't make things more difficult at work, but when you get so angry that you explode, i find it hard to believe that i should try and hold those feelings in somehow. i dont feel like i sunk to some deep dirty level. i simply told the bitch what i was feeling and it happened to be in a loud voice. she started the name calling.
but then jen was really nice and i talked to her about it. and about what my dad said to me. i think out of everything that happened yesterday, his words are what disturbed me the most. and they were GOOD. it's my reaction to them that confused me. eh. i guess i'm more fucked up in the head then i thought.
but then jen was really nice and i talked to her about it. and about what my dad said to me. i think out of everything that happened yesterday, his words are what disturbed me the most. and they were GOOD. it's my reaction to them that confused me. eh. i guess i'm more fucked up in the head then i thought.