Head Hurts
My head hurts,
And I can not stop think about how gross I feel.
I have been cast as a kit kat girl in Cabaret in the end of August.
Yes Cabaret as in underware, corsets, fishnets and high heels.
And sure I am the second best dancer in my class, so I should have
that role, but they are going to take one look at me and put me in the back.
Allowing sucky, untalented girls, who don't even know what a turn out is.
So I have 3 months to look amazing.
Plus dance has gotten so hard, prolly cause I am not use to all this weight
on my body. I am falling out of a double! me.
I hate who I am.
And I thought I was doing soo well.
Well my mom thinks I have a thryod (sp?) problem, she had it, got on some meds and lost 40lbs like that.
So when I am in a show, I gain weight, when I'm not I lose weight.
I have never been this big and never will be.
I also am growing out my hair.
So my new diet will be pills pills pills.