Hardest thing....
I had to write Michael his letter telling him we're in the clear and we don't gotta worry anymore (even though I know the throught never did cross his mind and he could care less if my life was fucked). Anyways, I can't believe how hard one thing could be me. No wonder no one had to pull my arm to get fucked up tonight. I just miss having someone car for me and even though he is like this I know and feel somewhere deep down he's not this big of an asshole. I just wanna be happy again. It just seems like I have my friend to be around, but I just need someone to be there to love me and show how much I mean to them. I just never get that and need it.